Father Abraham, Part I: An alternative history story

statue of american president in museum

Hi, all.

I was stuck hard on what I wanted to write about tonight. It’s been a while since I did a new fiction piece here. I’ve been focused on my longer work for a while, and I would say short fiction is firmly #3 on my priority list (with #1 being novel-length fiction and #2 being poetry1.

However, a friend of mine I know of from Archive of Our Own, one of the bigger fan fiction sites out there, wrote a bit of alternative history fiction for the site. I’ve liked the alternative history genre, so I decided to use one of the biggest events of American history as the inspiration for this piece.

I hope you enjoy it. And as the title suggests, this is only the first part of the story.


famous seated statue of president in memorial
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Father Abraham

Part 1: The Thespian Cometh Not (1865)

By Jason Liegois

From Abraham Lincoln: Second Father of His Country (Andrew R. Roberts, 1982).

Abraham Lincoln sits astride the history of the 19th century as, if not its most significant figure, certainly its most significant political figure. While his two terms in office did not see Lincoln make a significant direct impact on foreign affairs, he was the essential figure in not only preserving the only eight decades-old American democratic experiment, but in refining and strengthening that experiment for a century and more to come.

While F. Scott Fitzgerald said there were no second acts in American lives, he inexplicably must not have considered the life of Lincoln before committing the thought to paper. For Lincoln had a second act nearly as comparable to the first after he left the White House in the winter of 1869 (or perhaps a third act, if one was to consider his time spent as a successful Illinois traveling lawyer and a less successful time spent as a politician).

However, it’s almost staggering to consider this second act, and a good portion of the first act, almost was lost from history due to a twist of fate. While the attempted assassinations of four key figures of the United States government had a profound influence on subsequent events in post-Civil War America, one can only consider the resulting chaos if the Confederate conspirators had succeeded with their plans of 14 April 1865.

This sense of disconcertion increases, of course, when considering the only difference between a fresh start for the United States of America and chaos were a few liters of hard liquor.


13 April 1865, Washington, DC

It was around noon that day when John Wilkes Booth had tumbled out of his bed in the boarding room he called his living space and headed over to Ford’s Theater. He’d worked so often at the venue that he even had his mail delivered there.

Much was on Booth’s mind on the thirteenth of April, the culmination of a conspiracy at that point nearly two years in the making. However, a series of recent events had dramatically altered the nature of the plans against the American president from mere kidnapping to assassination.

Just two days previously, Booth, alongside his confidant and former Confederate soldier Lewis Powell, had attended a speech given by the president in Washington. It was on this occasion Lincoln had spoken of the need to give slaves now emancipated by either the Emancipation Proclamation or the Thirteenth Amendment to the First Constitution the right to vote.

Enraged, Booth turned to Powell and hissed, “That means n****r citizenship … That is the last speech he will ever give.”

He then urged Powell to immediately shoot Lincoln. It is unknown exactly why he did not simply make the attempt himself, whether it had to do with him not being armed at that time or that he considered Powell to be a better marksman than himself. However, Powell, too, begged off the attempt, worried about escaping from the crowd after the attack.

The next day, word of the surrender of Gen. Robert E. Lee and his Army of Northern Virginia three days hit the city. With Lee’s surrender, the capture of the Confederate capital of Richmond, Virginia, and the flight of Confederate President Jefferson Davis and his government from Richmond and toward exile, most observers considered the matter of the Southern rebellion all but closed.

For Booth, however, he felt there was one last hand to be played. General Joseph E. Johnson and his men were still at large somewhere between northern Virginia and the Carolinas, and other forces still not surrendered. And at Ford’s Theater on that day, the card dealer of the universe dealt Booth three aces.

It was at the theater that Booth overheard preparations being made for Lincoln, Lt. Gen. Ulysses S. Grant, overall commander of United States’ ground forces, and their wives to attend the next evening’s performance of Our American Cousin. It was a perfect opportunity for him to make his move.

That evening, Booth gathered his conspirators at the boarding house of Mary Surratt, their regular gathering place. As well as Booth, the crew included Lewis Powell, Powell’s fellow Confederate veteran Samuel Arnold, Surratt’s son John, a Confederate spy, David Herold, and George Atzerodt. All has been willing to undertake the kidnapping scheme, and now, with their beloved Confederacy on the brink of collapse, were now willing to undertake assassination.

And not merely a single assassination, either. It was clear to Booth the entire Union political and military leadership needed to be attacked if there was any hope of turning the inevitable tide.

With this in mind, Booth gave himself the task of entering the theater and then assassinating first Lincoln and then Grant as they watched the play. With his status as an actor who’d performed at Ford’s previously, he would have the least difficulty of gaining entrance to the theater and getting close to Lincoln and his party. Arnold would accompany him, wait outside, and then serve as a backup in case either Lincoln or Grant were able to escape the theater unharmed.

Meanwhile, Powell, accompanied by Herold, would go to the home of Secretary of State William Seward, the most prominent member of Lincoln’s cabinet, to assassinate him. Finally, Atzerodt would go to the Washington residence of Vice President Andrew Johnson and end his life.

John Surratt would be responsible for arranging funds and papers for the conspirators after the assassinations, to avoid the inevitable hunt by Federal authorities. Surratt and Powell’s connections to the Confederate Secret Service extended all the way to one man: Confederate Gen. Braxton Bragg, the former commander of the Army of the Tennessee and former chief military adviser to Jefferson Davis himself. Long disgraced in field command for his failures at Perryville, Stones River, and Chattanooga, his close friend Davis had given him the face-saving position of military adviser, but he’d been eased out of even this position with the naming of Robert E. Lee as the overall Confederate commander and the installation of one of Bragg’s multiple enemies, John C. Breckinridge, as Secretary of War.

Eager to prove his worth to his friend Davis, he began to involve himself in the plots to kidnap Lincoln, even going so far as to siphon funds away from the defense of Richmond to help pay the expenses of the conspirators.

Both Davis and Lee were aware of Bragg’s machinations. Davis was in favor of anything that would preserve the Confederacy, so he gave his unqualified assent to Bragg’s efforts. Lee was not as accepting of Bragg’s efforts as Davis, and informed the president of his misgivings, but in the end he did nothing to stop or hinder the efforts of the conspirators. Having limited dealings with subterfuge, Lee deferred whatever misgivings he had to his president’s judgement, right or wrong.

It would prove to be a fateful decision among all three men.


14 April 1865, Washington, DC

John Wilkes Booth

He was alone in the tavern at noon except for a few derelicts, the barkeep, and a glass with a whiskey bottle in front of him.

Anything to chase away the blues.

Over the past three days, his mood had veered from manic excitement to deep depression, from a knife-point focus to a scattered hopelessness. There were times when he vibrated with energy and purpose, certain that he and his co-conspirators were the only defense against losing the Southern way of life. But there were other times, more frequently now, where he sensed everything was lost.

He refilled his glass and took another shot. Regardless of whether he could save the Confederacy or it was beyond help, he felt in some ways he’d reached the end of his road at just twenty-seven years old. He’d been part of a storied acting family and had found both fame and fortune on the stage. However, he hadn’t stepped on a stage for a month and had no desire to. He’d joked to one of the borders at the Surratt house who’d asked about his absence that the only play he wished to star in was Venice Preserv’d. The man missed his attempt at humor – the play was about an assassination plot.

There was a letter in his coat pocket addressed to Lucy Hale, daughter of a US Senator from New Hampshire. They’d been secretly engaged two months previously. She had little knowledge of his support of the Confederacy and none of the depths of his hatred toward Lincoln.

He’d last seen her at Lincoln’s second inauguration last month. The last letter he’d sent her was at the end of the previous month. He was already mourning the loss of his love, just as he mourned the estrangement from his brother and fellow actor Edwin.

Even if he and his collaborators fully succeeded in their plans, at the very least they would all be on the run, If they were lucky they might be able to make it to overseas, maybe Mexico, the Caribbean, or Brazil. They even still had slavery in the last country. If not, perhaps Britain would give them asylum, or at worst look the other way. The worse scenario, of course, was him getting shot right after he shot the president and Grant. In any case, the well-crafted life and career he’d built over the past decade would be blown to pieces, at the very least.

He’d been preparing himself for the event for some time. He already had the derringer and dagger he planned to use on the president and Grant. But now, just hours before Our American Cousin was to start, he found preparing himself mentally for the task was, to use an analogy, a long leap.

He started at the bottle. He’d not slept, by his own reckoning, for a day and a half. With a deep sigh, he fumbled for some coins and bought a second whiskey bottle to take with him along with the half-filled first one. His intention was to go back to his room, get a drink, lay down for a few hours and wake up refreshed for the task ahead.

He managed to consume two-thirds of one bottle before passing out.


Arnold

He was in a bar he frequented many times in recent months, not to drink but to listen. It was a haunt of many of General Grant’s junior staff officers, and Arnold made a point of trying to unobtrusively listen in to the Union men’s conversations. He’d hoped to get a meal and perhaps some new information to pass along to his Confederate handlers, assuming they were still able to receive information while on the run from Union soldiers.

“…damndest thing, having to make plans for the old man to travel at the last minute,” he heard one young lieutenant say.

“Wasn’t he going to the theater tonight with the President?” a fellow lieutenant said.

“They said they had to visit some of Mrs. Grant’s relations, but in all frankness, I don’t know if the wives get on.”

“The number of people on friendly terms with the First Lady might be counted in two hands,” the second lieutenant said.

“Anyway, they’re on the train to New Jersey tonight. Place will be quiet the next couple of days.”

It took every amount of restraint for Arnold to finish his meal and his pint of beer and not immediately take his leave. His mind was racing, however.

Booth planned to kill both Lincoln and Grant but now it will be just Lincoln. I could either go wait for Booth as planned. But wouldn’t it make sense for me to try and see if I can get the drop on Grant? By himself, Grant might be enough to hold things together. And Booth should be able to get into Ford’s unaided, which is more than I could do.

In fifteen minutes, by the time he finally took his leave, Arnold had made his decision. Fingering the loaded pepperbox revolver he had in his coat pocket, he started to walk over to the New Jersey Avenue station to see when the next train to Jersey left.

#

Just before 10 p.m. that evening outside William Seward’s Lafayette Square home, Lewis Powell entered the home, attempting to claim he was delivering medicine to the Secretary of State, recovering from a fall from a carriage. Herold waited outside.

At the same moment, George Atzerodt went to the Kirkwood House, where Vice President Andrew Johnson was staying. Atzerodt stopped at the downstairs bar and had the first of several glasses of gin.

#

Arnold had found out the train to New Jersey was leaving at 10:15 p.m. The station was close to empty except for a few travelers, more than a couple of whom were soldiers apparently headed off on leave. He hid in the shadows behind a brick column on the train platform, his Colt Walker pistol drawn but hidden behind his back.

He saw a man and woman headed for the platform, the man in an officer’s overcoat and hat, and a dark-haired woman in a gray dressed who, to his surprise, appeared to be cross-eyed.

The lit end of a cigar illuminated the man’s face as they walked past him. Grant.

He waited until they walked past him, then eased behind the man, as soft-footed as possible. Arnold brought the revolver up to the back of Grant’s head. The first click of the gun cocking echoed across the platform.

Suddenly, the shorter man whirled to the right and Arnold could hear the scrape of steel. The general’s dress saber flashed through the air and struck his forearm, but the blade was at an uneven angle and did not cut deep. Regardless, it spoiled Arnold’s shot.

The ball whizzed between Grant and the woman’s heads, splintering the side of a nearby train car. Despite the ache in his arm, he tried to cock the revolver again for another shot.

With a lunge, Grant drove the point of his saber in the center of his gut. Gasping for breath, Arnold was driven to the ground by the older man.

Leaping up, Grant sprinted to the woman. “Julia! Julia! Are you all right?” He wrapped his arms around her shoulder as she knelt on the ground.

“I’m all right, Ulysses,” she whispered, choking back a sob. “I’m fine.”

It started getting darker for Arnold. Grant then knelt over him. “Who are you?” he shouted. “Who sent you? Who sent you?”

He couldn’t catch his breath. With a gasp, Arnold said, “You’re too late. The Illinois ape’s dead.”

His consciousness faded to black.

#

The screams from Seward’s house frightened Herold from tarrying around outside. A bloodied and manic Powell fled outside through the front door and exited into the night.

Atzerodt left the Kirkwood House without seeking out Johnson at all.

Booth still slept.


15 April 1865

Booth

It was morning. Oh my God, it’s morning.

Booth had fallen asleep on top of his bed. It’s morning? What happened? Damn me, I know what happened.

He ran out of the room and the house after gathering what money he had and a suitcase with some random clothing. Booth started to make his way to the train station.

At the first streetcorner, he saw a paperboy hawking the morning papers. He gave the boy a penny, walked down the streets, and gawked at the headlines:

ASSASSINS IN WASHINGTON

GRANT, SEWARD ESCAPE DEATH; SEWARD, SONS WOUNDED

PRESIDENT LINCOLN SUSPECTED TARGET

As he walked rapidly to the station, one thought came to mind: All is lost.


The White House

A young man approached one of the sentries on duty at the north side of the residence. “Excuse me, sergeant?”

“What’s your business?”

“My name’s John Surratt,” the man said. “I have information regarding the attacks on Gen. Grant and Sec. Seward.”


July 1865

Old Capitol Prison, Washington, DC

He walked through the gates with barely a word. He let Col. Rawlins and the three stars on each of his shoulders do the talking.

The orderlies led him to the door of the cell and unlocked it for him.

Lt. Gen. James Longstreet sat in a wooden chair at a dining table, staring through the barred window to the outside. There was a writing desk in one corner, a washbasin in another corner, and a modest cot on the other side of the room.

Dressed in a clean Confederate officer’s uniform, Grant’s former West Point classmate appeared paler than he recalled, but the bigger man’s hair and bushy beard reaching to his chest appeared well-groomed. He saw him pick up his right arm by the wrist and lay it down on the table with his left, and Grant remembered the wound from Petersburg.

“Afternoon, Sam,” Longstreet said. “Here to visit?”

“Actually, I am, Pete. I am,” Grant said.

Pete waved to a wooden chair on the other side of the table. “Make yourself comfortable.”

Grant nodded and sat down. “How have things been with you?”

Longstreet crossed his legs at the ankles as he leaned back and sighed. “In all truth, I would prefer to be back with my wife and children, but I cannot complain about the circumstances of my captivity. I doubt our troops in Camp Douglas had access to coffee,” he concluded, nodding at the tin mug of now-cold coffee on the table. He referred to an infamous camp for Confederate prisoners.

“Glad to hear it, Pete.”

“I’m assuming you had news for me, Sam? You didn’t want to share this with my counselor?”

“This news, I reckon, needed to be given in person.”

Longstreet fixed Grant with a dark stare. “Who’s getting hung, Sam?”

“Davis, Lee, and Bragg. Bragg for arranging it, Davis and Lee for agreeing to it.”

“Gen. Lee never agreed to anyone being assassinated, Sam.”

“He never objected, either, and he had the ability to stop it.” Grant’s expression twisted as if he was in pain. “All the living conspirators captured, of course: Booth, Powell, Herold, Atzerodt.”

“Not the Surratts, according to what I read in the papers?”

“Young Mr. Surratt gave us Davis, Lee, and Bragg in exchange for not charging his mother and leniency for himself – five years imprisonment.”

“Anyone else facing the noose?”

“Some for charges not related to the conspiracy. Gen. Forrest and some of his men have been charged in connection with the murder of Negro prisoners after Fort Pillow. The Swiss colonel in charge of Andersonville in Georgia and his men, too.”

“Maybe you should bring up the commandant of Camp Douglas up on charges, as well.”

“Turns out that possibility is being considered.”

There was a small quiver in Longstreet’s voice. “Am I under consideration?”

“No hanging. There’s a … consensus that those academy graduates who left the US forces to join the Confederacy deserve prison time.”

“Hell of a thing to be going back on your word you gave at Appomattox.”

I didn’t know there were people hunting for me and my president when I gave that word. It would have been neighborly for Gen. Lee to have given me fair warning about it at the time.”

“I knew nothing about it.”

“And that’s why you’re not getting hung,” Grant shot back. “Those bastards came within an inch of murdering my wife! Every other night I have visions of her getting shot in the chest and having to explain to my children why their mother can’t be with them. Pete, nothing ever shook me like this, not Mexico, not Tennessee, Mississippi, or Virginia. Nothing.”

There was a long silence between them. “How long for me?”

“No more than five years, though even now the president is looking to reduce sentences and I’m putting in a word for you. Voting rights restored after your release, but you’ll be prevented from holding elected office. The enlisted men, the non-commissioned officers, they’ll be left alone. But there has to be a price paid for going against your oath.”

Longstreet gazed out through the window, a blank expression on his face. “Any other surprises?

“The old man’s pushing through a land reform act, breaking up the big plantations, trying to get some of the land to the former slaves.”

“How in the hell is he going to get support for that?” Longstreet scoffed.

“He’s planning on including the white sharecroppers in on the deal, at least a good portion of them,” Grant responded.

Longstreet had a good laugh at that. “Probably a good thing I never got into the plantation business, then.”

“You want to see if I can get you and myself some fresh coffee, Pete?”

“Wouldn’t mind it.”


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Sailing Around Cape Horn: Poetry Night, 25 Jan. 2026

a scenic view of the ocean from cape horn

It’s another night for poetry around here.

It’s a bit cold outside for the past couple of days. That might have been on my mind when I wrote these.

Sorry if I’m not profound tonight


Modern Igloos

Fort Madison, Iowa, 24 January 2026

Frost paint windows off white

The cold invades where you’re closest to the outdoors

Only stone, wood, electrified heat sources, and a cup of tea

Hold off the entropy.

You think back to the old cartoons

Inuit chilling both ways in igloos

And being thankful for civilization

Because you know you couldn’t answer the Call of the Wild.


Didn’t want to do another winter poem, so I combined the cold weather with one of my recent obsessions, the ocean. It’s a weird obsession considering I only lived near the ocean for a very short time in my childhood and for most of my life I’ve never lived closer than 850 miles than the nearest part of the ocean (Gulf of Mexico). But maybe living near the Mississippi River sparked something like it with me. Apologies are likely in order for my parents who once had a catamaran for sailing on the the lakes in Iowa but I was not as enthusiastic about it back in those days like I should have been.

I started thinking about the old sailors who make the trip around Cape Horn in southern Chile. I’ve long heard legends about how challenging the trip was. This is me picturing what it might be like.


Cape Horn Days

24 January 2026, Fort Madison, Iowa

On the bridge, morning watch,

Sealed coffee mug fastened in the holder

Protection from the fifty-foot waves

And the blows of the Horn’s gales.

It’s not like it was with the old clipper sailors.

We have a restaurant-level galley and temperature-controlled cabins,

They had a fire pit, iron kettle, swaddled in wool to keep cold and water away.

We have electronic GPS navigation and radar, WiFi and satellite radio,

They had compass and charts if lucky, the stars and waves if they weren’t.

Steel and polymer vessels are far stronger than

Their wooden clipper ancestors.

But they both had to dodge typhoons and icebergs alike.

The Horn looms in the distance through his binoculars

Its waters wild, beautiful, and treacherous.


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A Rainy Night in Iowa: Poetry Night, 28 Dec. 2025

a rainy street with a motorcycle and a street light

All right, one more batch of poems for 2025.

I had thought I hadn’t been doing this series for too long, but a quick review of past posts indicated I’ve been doing this now for at least two years. It’s wild I’ve been doing this for that long.

In a glance at the file I’ve been using to store this year’s poems, I counted 29 poems I’ve written, both published and unpublished, since the start of the year. Considering I only ever wrote poetry once in a blue moon for nearly all my life, this is a massive increase in productivity.

Hopefully, I can keep this up. I have to say I’ve never put as much attention into my poetry as I have my fiction work, but I do hope putting in the time and work pays off in the end, if not financially then at least artistically.


I’m glad it’s becoming late fall/early winter now. I’ve always felt I did better in colder climates than warmer ones – maybe some heritage from my Wisconsinite parents and grandparents. But I also wonder if it would be everything I’d hope for, so this poem grew out of these thoughts.


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Rainy Night in Iowa

Fort Madison, Iowa, 28 December 2025

Skies uniform gray

Mist and wet saturate the ground

Seep into your hoodie and cap

Streetlights reflect onto wet pavement.

Fog gray shades and fades everything,

Convert hi-beams to decorative lights

Left with the fear of Iowa wildlife

Jumping into your path.


It’s getting close to the end of the year and I’m trying to race to reach my word count goal before New Year’s Day 2026. The possibility of me making the deadline can be described as possible but with no more time to lose. However, ever since my journalism days, a tight deadline has always inspired me – as well as this next poem.


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Immovable Deadline

Fort Madison, Iowa, 28 December 2025

In the end, it comes down to math:

Number of words yet to write

Number of days, hours, and minutes to write,

And a formula you hope will total the right number at Deadline.

No more hemming and hawing

As the numbers are there in your face

One thing to keep in mind: those words

Don’t have to be your best to make it to the Deadline.


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2026 is coming down the road. I’m wondering what words it will bring along.

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Rivers and Words: Poetry Night, 23 Nov. 2025

Tonight is Poetry Night for me, as I continue my journey as a poet playing around with words and ideas, scrambling both up into what could be called a decent dinner or a very late brunch. We could go with either one.

Before we get into the poetry, however, I have a brief poetry celebration to commemorate.

Last year for the first time, I became a dues-paying member of the Iowa Poetry Association, a small effort on my part to try and take my poetry seriously. For the first time this year, I participated in the IPA’s competitions for their annual anthology, Lyrical Iowa. Although I did not place in any of the competitions I participated in, my poem “Peace of Mind” was selected for publication in the 2025 version of Lyrical Iowa. You can pick up a copy here: this year’s edition was dedicated to Rodney Reeves, a fellow IPA member and a member of the Burlington-area Society of Great River Poets I also belong to.

Now, on with the poetry


I’m glad it’s becoming late fall/early winter now. I’ve always felt I did better in colder climates than warmer ones – maybe some heritage from my Wisconsinite parents and grandparents. But I also wonder if it would be everything I’d hope for, so this poem grew out of these thoughts.


village on sea coast
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Dreams or Mirages of the North

Fort Madison, Iowa, 23 November 2025

Cradled in my head

In the heat sink of an Iowan July

Despairing of sensing cold ever again

I entertain images of ice-wind gusts over rocky and remote lands

Mountains standing sentinel over a modest hamlet

The stark beauty of winter in twilight.

However, my mind ponders

The cool images warming my overheated soul

And I question if they are mere delusions.

If my dreams became some form of reality

And I arrive at my ideal lands,

Would it merely be a cold hardship rather than one overheated?


I only once lived in a home near the ocean, the modest-sized town of Seabrook, Texas. It was southeast of Houston, on Galveston Bay with Galveston Island a bit further southeast.

I ended up spending most of my life on the banks of the Mississippi River, but I’ve sometimes wondered whether I would have developed something of a similar kinship to the ocean I did to the river. I’ve come to consider that it might be slightly different due to apprehensions I have about very large bodies of water.

I have the type of fear of heights that has no effect on me if I’m at the top floor of a building or flying in a plane1, but leaves me almost paralyzed at the thought of me hanging off the side of a building on a rope or even peeking over the balcony of a tall place. Similarly, I have no fear of crossing an ocean by ship, but I wonder what type of panic I would have if I ducked my face underneath the waves and all I saw was dark blue fathoms and prowling sharks below2.

So, those thoughts prompted the following.


serene ocean pier extending into blue waters
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Tepid Channels and Chilled Depths

Fort Madison, Iowa, 23 November 2025

Sitting in the brownish green of The River

Its Flow around me as I sit on the edge of the channel

Anchoring my feet in the muck of its riverbed,

The life and waters pouring around me,

I ponder what it would be like to dive into the open waters

Of the Open Sea.

I picture myself bobbing on top of the endless brine

And anxiety wrapping my heart into tap-out submission

At the thought of dipping my head above the surface

Gazing into the acres of dark blue, the alien fathoms,

Waiting for it and its dwellers to devour me,

I treasure the tepid channels above the chilled depths.


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Take care, everyone, and I’ll see you down by the bend in the river, road, or line.

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  1. My reluctance to fly nowadays is due to crowded aircraft, cramped seating, and overcharged tickets. ↩︎
  2. A new word I learned today – Thalassophobia, the fear of deep bodies of water. You can learn new stuff every day. ↩︎

Rivers and Words: Poetry Night, 26 Oct. 2025

Welcome to a Sunday night edition of Poetry Night, where I produce some original poetry usually inspired by the territory and lands I live in or my day to day experiences and musings. Tonight will be a mix of both of those ideas.


I managed to get out onto the Mississippi River again today, thanks very much to my wife. It was especially lovely in October when you can see the leaves changing and you don’t start sweating five minutes after you step outside like you do in July. This was (hopefully) the first of a few results of the trip.


Drifting

Fort Madison, Iowa, 26 October 2025

Upstream

The boat muscles against the current

Against the Flow

While we huddle as the wind

Whisks our warmth away.

Once we navigate the starboard turn

Between the green can near the Iowa side

And the red cone near the Illinois

The current and the islands protect us from

The worst of the wind

And we go with the flow.

The multicolored leaves shelter the cabins

On the River’s edge

And it feels like home.


I’ve tried to not get too political with my writing in general and especially my poetry, but it feels like there’s more that needs to be said.


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The Cost of Speech

Fort Madison, Iowa, 26 October 2025

Americans confuse “freedom of speech”

With “free speech.”

Trust a teacher and poet to get pedantic

With vocabulary and definitions.

While the latter is a shortened version of the former,

Implications grow that speech is free.

Speech, in fact, has both great value

And great cost.

The proper words have enough value

To inspire people and save souls.

But they also cost their speakers

In ways more valuable than money.

All of us have freedom

But we all have to pay the cost.


Now a quick commercial break, lol.


If You’re Interested in the Poetry You See Here… You Might Want to Check Out Some More…

My first collection of poetry is out.

Since Substack doesn’t have the setup for this (that I’m aware of), I’ve set up something at my WordPress sister site, Liegois Media. I have my own Internet storefront page where you can order my chapbook for $6 per copy. The link is below.



I hope you’ve had a great weekend. I’ll see you around the bend.

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A Hodge Podge: Poetry Night, 28 Sept. 2025

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Hello, all who either happened to stumble on to my page or regular subscribers. It’s Poetry Night, where I drop some samples of original poetry for your consumption and consideration. The theme for tonight is… all over the place, to be honest. Let’s see what I whip up tonight.


The first poem tonight is me realizing I’m in a fiction writing rut and trying to get out of it with this poem. It’s only sort of working1.


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Procrastination

Fort Madison, Iowa, 26 September 2025

Staring at a screen

Which is not the one you need to be staring at

The words don’t come

You want them to appear already

The creation completed

The effort behind you.

But your thoughts

Dart toward endless distractions

And entertainments occupying your mind.

The problem is

While you feel calm when you distract yourself

At the end

There’s just emptiness for time and opportunities

Wasted.


This is not a poem intended to be aimed at anyone in particular. I think it’s something that might apply to many people who think they might need to engage with certain individuals, some they know very well, some little more than strangers. Sometimes it’s better to keep your distance.


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Hermitage

Fort Madison, Iowa, 26 September 2025

There are people in this world

Who provide anxiety and not comfort

Emotional work and not renewal,

Who drain and don’t cultivate.

You feel you need to engage

To draw them in, to cultivate relationships.

Building relations, networks,

Is the most human of instincts.

But poisoned people you don’t need

In your hermitage of the soul,

You can keep that safe

And thrive on your own.


Now a quick commercial break, lol.


If You’re Interested in the Poetry You See Here… You Might Want to Check Out Some More…

My first collection of poetry is out.

Since Substack doesn’t have the setup for this (that I’m aware of), I’ve set up something at my WordPress sister site, Liegois Media. I have my own Internet storefront page where you can order my chapbook for $6 per copy. The link is below.



Anyway, hope your night is going well. I’m doing all right, trust me. See you around the bend of the road, river, or rail, depending2.

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  1. It’s actually not – I just looked at my word count for last week. ↩︎
  2. Thanks to my friend and fellow poet Gesene Oake for her suggestions and revisions to these pieces. ↩︎

Poetry Night at the Writing Life, 23 August 2025: About word weaving and word weavers

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Hi, everyone, subscribers and random readers alike. It’s Poetry Night, the night I drop some brand new selections of verse for your reading pleasure. The use of words and those who use words for a living are the themes of tonight’s offerings.

But first, a quick commercial break 😄.


If You’re Interested in the Poetry You See Here… You Might Want to Check Out Some More…

My first collection of poetry is out.

Since Substack doesn’t have the setup for this (that I’m aware of), I’ve set up something at my WordPress sister site, Liegois Media. I have my own Internet storefront page where you can order my chapbook for $6 per copy. The link is below.


Over the years I’ve spent writing in all forms and genres, there’s always been a balancing act between using mountains of words to paint vivid mental pictures or construct grand arguments and keeping what you write short and to the point. Combining this observation with Miles Davis’ statements about how the notes a musician doesn’t play have more significance than the ones they do play were inspiration for this piece.


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Words and Spaces

Fort Madison, Iowa, 22 August 2025

Over time in the years I’ve worked and weaved with words

I’ve used ones which were impactful, obscure, theatrical, stylish, and elaborate.

At times they overcrowded my work

Weary football fans packing onto too-small benches for forgotten games and reasons.

But over years I’ve come to learn

The spaces between words

The things left unsaid and unattended for the reader to ponder

Make a meaningful effect.


Earlier this week was the ninth anniversary of The Tragically Hip’s final live show in their hometown of Windsor, Toronto, Canada. The legendary Canadian band was at the end of its final tour after vocalist and primary songwriter Gord Downie announced he had terminal brain cancer. He’d die a year later at just 53 years old.

I had been vaguely aware of the band during its growth into prominence during the early 90’s, but they were always more Canada’s band than other great Canadian musical acts that found cross-border appeal. Unfortunately, I didn’t get into them heavily until just before his death, so I’ve had to spend the time since sifting through three decades worth of fantastic music.

Tonight, I figured a dude who once wrote a song called “Poets” was probably a good subject for one.


Gord Downie

Words to Remember Gord (A Memorial)

Fort Madison, Iowa, 20 August 2025

I remember the sight of you in white

Jaunty white top hat

Knife-edge lean but a grin as wide as the Ontario prairies

Singing for your home and people with a ferocity born

Knowing it was the last time.

Knowing Death was gathering you up, preparing your space,

As you stood tall on the stage.

You sung of death long before it reached you,

But also of love, friendship, loss, home, and life

You were a poet even as you said not to tell you of them

And what I learned from you is

Life has no dress rehearsal

It is now.


Well, hope I gave you some enjoyment tonight. Hope the rest of August goes well for you. Take care, everyone.


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An Appeal to My Readers: Are you interested in meeting me in person?

Hi, everyone.

I’ll be brief here, since I covered most of what I wanted to cover in the video. Basically, I’m looking for people to commit to attending an author event at Beaverdale Books, 2629 Beaver Ave, Ste 1, in Des Moines, Iowa. I was hoping to have the event on the evening of Oct. 29 (a Wednesday).

The fine people at Beaverdale have asked me to try and guarantee that I can have at least fifteen people to attend the event. I am going to be soliciting people to commit to attending the event for the next two weeks. If I don’t have at least fifteen people telling me they can make it to the author’s event two weeks from today, I’ll have to tell them to cancel and that I’ll do an event with other authors at a later date.

Basically, if you want to support me, go ahead and click on the button below (The one that says “Start Survey”) and let me know if you can be in Des Moines in a couple month’s time. We’ll talk writing fiction, The Yank Striker series, and being a writer in Iowa who doesn’t write about farming or those bridges in Madison County. 🙂

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Poetry Night at the Writing Life, 26 July 2025: About cool secluded places. And mushrooms lol.

Hello, all subscribers and anyone happening upon my page this Saturday evening. Tonight is Poetry night once again. This is where I throw out some brand new, never before seen poetry out into the world and see if anyone digs them or not. How about I get started?


If You’re Interested in the Poetry You See Here… You Might Want to Check Out Some More…

My first collection of poetry is out.

Since Substack doesn’t have the setup for this (that I’m aware of), I’ve set up something at my WordPress sister site, Liegois Media. I have my own Internet storefront page where you can order my chapbook for $6 per copy. The link is below.


You may have sensed this if you have followed me1, but I am not a fan of the hot weather. When some of my work colleagues in April were praying for sun and warmth, I was thinking of how July 2024 extended into November of the same year and thought to myself oh, don’t worry, you’ll get it soon enough and get it hard.

Some people want to vacation in Cancun or Florida, I would prefer to go to Iceland or the Faroe and Shetland Islands. Some people want to go on cruises to the Caribbean; I would prefer a tour of the Rhine/Main/Danube rivers or a voyage of the Great Loop2.

With all that being said, if I had to go outside, I’d feel a lot more comfortable in a dense, cool, moist forest with plenty of shade rather than a tropical jungle, beach, desert, or other biome3. This, plus a bevy of mushrooms popping up in my yard4, inspired this poem.


Mushroom Hunt in the Forest

Fort Madison, Iowa, 26 July 2025

Crisp breeze

Wet air

Cloudy days

Now is my time.

Sneaking under the pine and oak canopy

On my own

Burlap bag over my shoulder

Mushroom knife in my true right hand

Well-thumbed mushroom guide in

My left.

I wander around the trunks

In the cool shade

On the lookout for

Cauliflower

Chanterelle

Hawks Wing

Honey Mushroom

Lobster

The Prince

And the Truffles.

I put them in my sack

Converse with nature

And get some satisfaction

That I can be resourceful

As my electric-deficient ancestors were.


To be honest, however, the deepest darkest place I tend to hang out in (if I have one) during the depths of the overheated Iowa summers has been a basement. My childhood home in Muscatine had a great basement where I spent most of my waking moments. It was my lair. In the first three homes I owned, they all had basements but were not quite set up for lounging, so I had to come up with alternative locations. My new home here in Fort Madison has a proper basement, with enough space for not only my home office, but a recliner and love seat, breakfast nook table, a utility room/storage area/work bench, more storage, bath and shower, refrigerator, and microwave. I need to be appreciative of the nice stuff I have. 🙂


Man Cave

Fort Madison, Iowa, 25 July 2025

Back when

Homo Sapiens Sapiens

Was just Homo Sapiens

Before they built castles

Long houses

Daub and wattle huts

And lean-tos

They gathered inside the natural caverns

In their irregular water and wind-carved

Empty spaces

To make them their own.

They liked the solid cool spaces

Sheltered from the elements

Secure from danger

With a dollop of safety.

I live in different times.

My caves are not rounded and irregular

But squared and measured.

My caves are not wet and living

But dry and dead.

However,

It is a good home for me

Not in tune with the natural world

A concrete, steel, and wood sanctuary

For a civilized boy like me.


That’s it for tonight. Hope you all don’t sweat to death the next couple (or few) of months56.


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  1. And how. ↩︎
  2. Here’s some info in case you didn’t know what I was talking about. ↩︎
  3. I am not an outdoorsy person, as you will see. ↩︎
  4. Told you the photos would have some relevance. ↩︎
  5. Iowa only has maybe two perfect months of weather during the year. I have told my wife I do not wish to live anywhere between North and 40° South latitude. Currently, I live at 40°38’05” North. ↩︎
  6. Honestly, I would love to retire and live somewhere around 45° North or South, which would suggest somewhere in Minnesota, the Upper Peninsula, or Alaska. Or maybe southern Patagonia in Argentina. I like cold places, all right? In my final days, I don’t want to sweat to death, even in our climate change world. ↩︎

Poetry Night at the Writing Life, 28 June 2025: About what we keep and what we remember

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Hi, it’s Poetry Night once again. I’ve been busy this month with the imminent release of my book The Yank Striker’s Journey, so poetry hasn’t been on the front-burner of my brain1. But I I do have a couple of offerings for you tonight.


If You’re Interested in my Poetry Here… You Might Want to Check Out Some More

My first collection of poetry is out now.

Since Substack doesn’t quite have the setup for this, I’ve set up something here at Liegois Media. I set up my own Internet storefront page where you can order my chapbook for $6 per copy. This is the link, as is the one below.


As far as poetic inspiration goes, I ended up doing a bit of picking up and rearranging some things I’ve stored for a long time. I mean, some of these items have traveled with me for about twenty years at least and between maybe four different houses. The process inspired at least one poem, which I’ll share with you below2.


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Memory Memorials

Fort Madison, Iowa, 28 June 2025

Black plastic mausoleums

Sit ready to entomb

Talismans of memory.

Older resting places

Tearing carboard boxes and dirt-smeared tubs

Disposed for secure memorials.

Letters, trinkets, tickets, and keepsakes

Keys to memories faded or misplaced

Like forgotten jars in the back pantry

And older clothes tucked into the sides of closets.

Talismans tucked away

In hermetically sealed plastic bags and acid-free paper

Then into the black mausoleums stowed on steel shelves

The external hard drives of human memory.


All the thinking about memories, the ones you have and the ones you had, led me to write this related poem below.


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Memories Lost

Fort Madison, Iowa, 28 June 2025

Why do memories fade

Other than short circuits and worn wires in the brain

Other than the subconsciousness

Protecting the front of the brain?

Do they get misplaced

Shoved into the back corners of the skull?

Do some memories have shorter life spans than others?

Or does the human hard drive have limited storage

Forced to overwrite older memories for higher priority ones?

It would be good to know

Because finding lost memories

Isn’t as straightforward as finding your phone or house keys.


That’s it for tonight. Hope you’ve had a great June and Pride Month.


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  1. And I’m sorry I blew through my usual deadline for releasing something today (5 p.m. Central). ↩︎
  2. There have been more than a few poems I’ve written not intended for publication (at least not immediately). That’s allowed me to be a bit more free with my experimentation and subject matter than the stuff I write with the express intention to share publicly. ↩︎