Writing’s Just a Side Gig for Me. That’s All Right Because It’s the Same for Nearly Everyone Else.

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While I have always considered myself a writer, I always had a suspicion it would always be a uphill battle for me to make my entire living from writing, even though I finally decided to get into the writing game seriously anyway. For every Stephen King, James Patterson, and Jackie Collins, there were always thousands and thousands of writers who never found that type of success.

Many years after I began considering becoming a writer, it has not become any easier to make a living as a writer, although perhaps it has become easier to get your stories published, whether through smaller indie houses or self-publishing. And while I certainly will make some money through my fiction, the idea I would be able to pay any major bills with said income would be foolish. It’s been a fantastic experience, but a career I would not call it – so far1.

I typically don’t base my posts on someone else’s posts, but every so often, I see something on Substack which is vibing with what I’m thinking2. And when I ran across this post by Tasmina Perry , a Sunday Times bestselling author and owner of her own digital media company, a couple of days ago in my feed, I had to give it a good long read.


The first couple of paragraphs got me:

Over the past few months, my author group chats have taken on a slightly funereal vibe. Friends are getting dropped by their agents. Novels go out on submission and then… nothing. Editors are being laid off. And people keep muttering the same dread-filled phrase:

Is this the end of the career author? The writer who lives entirely off book deals and royalties, the dream so many of us were raised to believe in.


Oh, jeez … other people have been facing this problem? Even all the ones making more money than I have? I had to continue.

Basically, it appears a combination of smaller advances on books from those publishers who still offer advances, a smaller middle of the road publishing list, and an overcrowded market is squeezing authors3.

So many times, I always felt no matter what word of promotion or work I’ve tried to do to get the word out about my books, it’s never been enough. But as it turns out, I’m not alone … and I’m going up against forces many other authors are facing.

Worse than the instability of all this is the shame.
So many writers assume it’s their fault. That their book wasn’t good enough. That they somehow failed.

But it’s not their fault.

The truth is that the desire to make a full-time living solely from writing books has always been a gamble, far riskier than most of us are willing to admit.


The point that Perry, who has been heavily in the writing business for twenty years, is trying to make is trying to make a living as an author is hard. There are so many variables out there, from distribution and related logistics to promotions and acts of God that can screw things up for anyone, even someone with the level of success that she has. She shares several examples from her own experiences, including a funny story involving Waterloo Station in England and the Fifty Shades of Grey series.

However, as Perry points out, it’s never been easy to make a living solely from their book sales. Most historical authors like Charles Dickens, Mark Twain, and others made their living from a variety of other methods other than just book sales, whether that was from public lectures and readings, journalism, or a variety of day jobs. I paid my bills with money from a variety of newspapers and radio stations in eastern Iowa and western Illinois, and (at last count) a half-dozen or more public school districts and at least two junior colleges.

Looking back on the history of publishing, Perry asserts there was only a brief golden era of the 1960’s to the early 2000’s when mass-market paperbacks and other factors made publishing houses flush with success. I might say this golden era might have extended from roughly 1920 to 2020, but maybe I’m more of a fan of nice round numbers to be an unbiased analyst of this phenomenon. However, both eras happened to coincide with my childhood and my childhood obsession with fiction, and I don’t think that is a coincidence in my case.

However, now that we don’t have these unrealistic expectations, I have to agree with her that we have to consider writing to be just another aspect of our personal and professional lives. We as writers have to develop many different ways of supporting ourselves, back to the way things used to be. And maybe it’s for the best.

I often said if I had to pick the biggest misconception of my life, it was the idea I had to make my passion my career. Maybe it would have been simpler of me if I joined the post office like Charles Bukowski or the Veteran’s Administration like Harvey Pekar and left my intellectual exercises for my writing. However, I’ve enjoyed journalism and teaching and believe I contributed something to my community in both professions. I believe everyone has made weird turns in their lives, but have gotten something out of it, some hard-won knowledge, in the end. I’d like to think I am no different.


In Conclusion

I’m going to keep writing the way I’m writing. It’s not because I think it’s my path to unimaginable fame and fortune. It’s because I can’t picture doing anything else other than expressing myself through writing.


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  1. Remember, Sean Connery once said he’d never play James Bond again and then proceeded to star in a Bond film literally titled Never Say Never Again. Anything can happen, I guess. ↩︎
  2. And in all honesty, I’ve been on a dry run of writing for at least three days and I usually get a bit eager to break that spell by any means necessary not involving cutting and pasting or AI foolishness. ↩︎
  3. It’s also obvious that fewer kids are reading books, but I think I’m too much in love with the written word to worry about changing fashions now. ↩︎

My Media Consumption Over the Years

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It’s been a bit since I considered what I do when I’m not (and to be honest, most often when I am1) writing. I feel like I have been entertaining myself with electronic devices and non-electric devices most of my life.

My generation (Generation X) straddled the line between the world before and after the Internet. I grew up without any exposure to life online, but I’ve spent more of my life online than offline. In a few years, I will have lived in the 21st century for longer than I lived in the 20th, so if that isn’t symbolic of this whole before and after Internet deal, I don’t know what is.

With this in mind, I decided to examine my media habits and how they’ve changed from the days I huddled in my parents’ basement and chilling out after a day at school and now when I regroup from a day or a week of teaching in the Yellow Submarine.

The Yellow Submarine is the new nickname I’ve just come up with for my basement. This is due to the yellow paint job my basement came with, as well as the metal ceiling you can’t see in this shot. I’ve got a nice desk and writing nook, though, and I’ve since added a bigger computer screen on my desk and there’s a flat screen TV screwed into a wall mount about eight o’ clock from my desk.

I figured since media consumption is an obvious on writers, it’s a legitimate form of discussion for me on this blog. I’ll discuss various entertainments, both print, analog, and digital, and how my appetite has changed over the years in three periods (childhood, young adulthood (18-40 or so), and nowadays). Don’t worry, I’ll keep it quick.


Print Media

  • Childhood – I consumed books, magazines, and newspapers more or less constantly from the first time I started to understand the words. I also didn’t limit myself to kids’ stuff, either – I was reading about national news pretty early, at least before my age got into the low double digits. I would go to libraries and clear them out, and I ended up subscribing to a lot of magazines over the years, everything from National Geographic World to Boy’s Life and World Press Review.
  • Young Adulthood – more of the same.
  • Nowadays – I read less stuff on paper because in the case of newspapers, there is less of it2. In the case of magazines, I’m tired of storing a whole bunch of them I rarely reread.
    Books, however, are still a passion of mine, obviously, and not just from the writing standpoint. I have to pick and choose which books to buy and read, but I emphasize trying to support independent authors and/or independent booksellers with my purchases.
    Some of my most recent fiction purchases were The Border by Don Winslow and Lord of the Isles by David Drake (both indie bookstore purchases) and The Purple Door District by Erin Casey (a fellow indie author from the Iowa City area). My two recent nonfiction purchases are We Crapped in Our Nest: Notes From the Edge of the World by Art Cullen (the northwest Iowa edition of Jimmy Breslin or Mike Royko) and The Swine Republic by Chris Jones. Both are from the indie publishing house of Ice Cube Press from North Liberty, Iowa, and were bought for research purposes (my upcoming horror environmental novel The Land, the River, and The Waste3.

Television

  • Childhood: Absolutely addicted to it. I had one of those old heavy cathode ray tube deals looming in one corner of my parents’ basement that was mine, daddy-o, get it? How could my parents tell I was watching it? Because whenever they looked down the staircase to the basement, they saw my butt parked on the basement carpet immediately in front of the television, and the fact the numbers on the console wore out after a couple of years was another clue. I watched everything from Warner Bros. and the Superfriends cartoons, sci-fi, action films, and everything in between. I had HBO for a couple of years and that’s when I watched Star Wars like thirty times.
  • YA: More of the same, but I added VCR tapes to the mix. I kept Blockbuster in business for a few years on my spending money, and that’s when I’d watch some of the more out there movies and videos they wouldn’t show on cable.
  • Nowadays: Cable is dead. I’ve watched YouTube TV for the past five years or so and never missed cable. Honestly, there’s times I just watch YouTube and not bother with the channels because it seems like there’s nothing worth watching on them at the times they broadcast them. When YouTube TV dropped all the Disney channels recently due to some pay dispute, I waved goodbye with not a care in the world. The only channel in that lineup I watch is ESPN, and that’s because of Pardon the Interruption and their Formula 1 coverage. Well, they’re dropping Formula 1 next year, and Tony and Michael will retire sometime, so…

Journalism

  • Childhood: I made an effort to keep up with the news, either with my local paper (The Muscatine Journal) or with the local television stations. I also started watching cable news, especially CNN, as well as the Sunday news chat shows.
  • YA: At this point of my life, I was actively involved in journalism as a career and I ended up reading everything I could about both domestic and international news services. I believed the US press was a necessary check on the power of the government and was proud I was a small part of it.
  • Nowadays: I’ve come to consider for-profit journalism, especially the national corporate media, to be a contradiction in terms. Right now the owners of these organizations are only interested in making money and
    I still support independent journalists and those trying to be effective local news sources, which are few and far between nowadays. The Iowa Writers Collaborative Roundup and sources like The Iowa Mercury are what I prefer to support now, but I also still follow many international journalism sources.My experiences in journalism drove a lot of the themes of my debut book, The Holy Fool, such as the decline of print media and a need for a new way of conducting journalism.
    To be frank, political news has ceased to be entertainment to me. I never read stuff like PJ O’Rourke or journalism memoirs anymore.

Sports

  • Childhood: I don’t recall watching a lot of sports on television,
  • YA: I followed the 1990’s glory days of the NBA and the Chicago Bulls, because that’s what everyone else was doing. I also got more heavily into the NFL, and choose the Green Bay Packers as my team due to my parents’ ties to Wisconsin. NASCAR was a brief thing. Pro wrestling got my attention. I also continued to follow soccer, especially after the 1994 World Cup, even though television coverage of both foreign and domestic soccer was spotty.
  • Nowadays: Soccer is the only sport I follow with anything close to the attention I once paid to other sports. That I watch every weekend now.
    I was getting into Formula 1 a bit, but the TV rights silliness between ESPN and YouTube TV has put this at risk as well as the rights transferring to Apple TV next year. Pro wrestling is a bit more of an obsession with me although I never watch live events and usually just watch recaps or highlights on YouTube. NASCAR rules got too complicated and I got tired of watching cars turn left all the time. I never watch NBA anymore; just lost interest. I follow the Hawkeyes a bit more because my wife is a big Hawkeyes fan. But as far as the NFL or the NHL, or other sports? I usually just leave them on for background noise. All I know about the Packers and the Chiefs are who their quarterbacks are and that’s about it.

Writing Equipment

  • Childhood: I relied on the big spiral notebooks you used in school and conventional pens and pencils. I dreamed of having my own working electric typewriters like a true professional writer would have, but that never happened.
  • YA: By the time I could afford typewriters, the desktop computer became ubiquitous. I relied on a series of personal computers both at home and at my professional work for writing of all kinds.
  • Nowadays: I’m sticking with laptops for my writing – I can barely compose anything on my phone. I’ve gone to smaller notebooks like Moleskine to write and do initial planning for my projects. I’ve found sifting through those ideas by hand is a better way to engage my brain.
    AI is the devil, more or less. If I use AI to write my work, what’s the point of doing it in the first place?

Music

  • Childhood: When I was a kid, I listened to my Dr. Seuss records and some of my dad’s old albums on the old record player downstairs. My teens was the midst of the cassette era, and I found out about music from the radio and MTV like all kids in America was supposed to, but every now and then I’d find about outsider groups like the Velvet Underground, Iggy Pop, the Ramones, and others. It was an interesting time.
  • YA: Same, although the albums in our collection stayed on the shelves and I started getting CDs. The first CD I remember buying was Little Earthquakes by Tori Amos, which was one clue I was trying to listen to different things even back then.
  • Nowadays: My cassettes are long gone and my CD’s are in storage. I find and listen to most of my music on YouTube nowadays, from old groups I never heard of such as Richard Thompson, Fairport Convention, and Stan Rogers, to a few new groups like Amyl and the Sniffers. I’m trying not to be one of those guys that just believes no good music is being made anymore.

Video Games

  • Childhood: I was one of the early adopters. I was playing Atari 2600 and Nintendo NES from childhood, and sometimes my parents had to drag me out of the basement to get me back into the world. (My mom was into Zelda herself for a bit.)
  • YA: I continued playing Sega, Nintendo 64, and also PC games as well once I got computers which performed well enough to play them.
  • Nowadays: After playing some Playstation and XBox with my son as he grew up, I’ve fallen away from many video games. No more consoles for me; too much time wasted. I want to write more. I honestly waste enough time (and money, oops) on mobile games as it is.

The Internet

  • Childhood: Never existed. Next question.
  • YA: I was literally the last college student in America not to get email. I had dial-up but not AOL, and I think it was the best. The Internet was sort of fun before people decided they had to monetize the hell out of it like they did everything else.
  • Nowadays: I’m very wary of algorithms, propaganda, bots, and AI crowding out all the actual human beings online (and not all those human beings are prizes either). The only real reason I’m still on social media is to promote my books and connect with other writers. Otherwise I’d just set up a Discord for all my friends and settle for that, or get them to join me on Signal or whatever the new replacement is.

In Conclusion

I’ve gone to believing in technology to openly wondering whether “Uncle” Frank Herbert wasn’t right about thinking machines when he wrote Dune sixty years back.

Touch grass and/or open water when you get the chance, kids. You’ll thank me for it.


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  1. I’ve written more about procrastination more times than I can count. ↩︎
  2. This was the whole idea behind my debut book. ↩︎
  3. This is the “working title” only – I’ll reveal the actual title after we get closer to publication. ↩︎

There Were Once Two Books Lurking in My Electronic Footlocker

I’ve joked here about a month ago that I haven’t been a good Iowa writer. By this, I mean I haven’t set much of my writing in my home state of Iowa12. My first book, The Holy Fool, had a protagonist who was born in Iowa but otherwise had little connection with the state3. My second book, The Yank Striker, and its subsequent series, has no connection whatsoever with Iowa4.

I just called The Holy Fool and The Yank Striker my first and second book. They are the first two books I ever had published, but they are not the first two books I’ve ever written. That honor goes to two books I wrote back when I was still within my twenties and early thirties, books I have discussed here previously but have not revisited for a while. And I’m finding myself coming back to them all these years later and wondering whether they might be worth a low-stakes revision and publication.


Book 1: Buried Secrets (AKA Rough Boys)

The first book I ever really wrote, the first one to emerge from the perpetual stew simmering inside my head and to live more than a few hastily written or typed pages, was essentially a young adult crime novel.

It started bubbling up in my imagination somewhere in my twenties, those years when I kept calling myself a writer and yet didn’t write much of anything but anonymous news articles about city councils, elections, feature stories, and the like. I thought fiction had been set aside in my head, but I finally got around to producing … something.

At the time, I was still trying to sort through all the teenage debris in my head, even as I was getting closer to being an adult. By the time I’d finished putting together a rough draft, I’m pretty sure I was already married and in my mid-twenties.

In it’s initial form under the title Buried Secrets (inspired by some ideas from a variety of young adult novels I devoured throughout my teenage and young adult years), it started as a high school senior with interests in journalism and/or law enforcement learns that a mysterious girl his age is living alone in a house that seems to be abandoned. He gets to know her and learns that she is trying to find out the identity of her biological mother and father after her adoptive parents died. She came to find out that they were both residents of his hometown (a small eastern Iowa town, hint hint). He agrees to help her out with his knowledge of the town, and they begin to have a romance.

At the same time, he learns that some members of his school’s football team committed a sex crime against one of their classmates. (Taking a cue from a real-life incident in the national media, the first drafts had this person be a girl, but I eventually changed it to a guy and the secret boyfriend of my main character’s best male friend). As he’s trying to help out this girl, he’s also trying to help solve this case.

In the revised version of the story, which I re-titled Rough Boys, the main character gets to know the girl after he coincidentally finds the body of her mother washed up on the banks of the Mississippi River one day before the start of his senior year. He learns from both her and the police that the mother was a one-time con artist now working for the company his father works for. The question soon becomes: had she returned to the grifting life, and how might it have led to her death? I also kept the B-story about his friend and his secret boyfriend, as well.

So, I tried to shop the book around to several agents, but I never got anywhere with it. There was one agent who took an upfront fee but either she never got a publisher interested or, as many things now turn out to be on the Internet, it was a scam all along. After a while, my wife and I started a family, I dug into my journalism career for a time, and the book got set aside.


Book 2: Excitable Boy

It was sometime around the early 2000’s when I heard about National Novel Writing Month, or NaNoWriMo for short. This was the contest founded by writer Chris Baty back in 1999 as a way to encourage people to write. Every November, competitors around the world attempted to write 50,000 words in a single month5.

I have to give this competition credit for getting me thinking about being productive as a writer and getting me thinking about word counts. It would eventually be the inspiration for me keeping track of my word counts for fiction and nonfiction and eventually using them as motivation for kicking my productivity into a higher gear than ever before.

I ended up participating in the 2003 NaNoWriMo event and succeeded in producing a 50,000-word manuscript. Dear readers, you ask how is it possible to produce a 50,000-word novel in just 30 days? One of the secrets to doing it is simple: it doesn’t have to be a good novel6.

When I dipped into the creative stew for this story, I thought about the phenomenon of school shootings and violence which was even then becoming an epidemic. I asked myself, what would happen if one of these kids, these perpetrators, lived through the experience? What might happen if he served his time, got his release? Could there be any hope for them later?

That’s what I ended up exploring in the book which I would eventually title Excitable Boy. Again, I would try shopping it to some agents and publishers, but nothing ever came of it. I ended up setting it aside in the midst of my transition from living in Clinton, Iowa, and moving back to my hometown of Muscatine to raise our kids and my professional transition into teaching.


So, Now What?

One of the reasons it took me a little longer to get this post out than usual is because I was looking through these old stories today trying to get a handle on them.

I took a look at it yesterday… and it’s not horrific? It might be more than salvageable? And the thing is… at some point, maybe four years back, I changed the name of the town the story takes place in to the name I’m considering using for my new book idea. So… I had that idea for the past four years? Longer? Talk about a perpetual stew of ideas.

As for the second idea (Excitable Boy)… it’s probably not the kind of idea I’d explore now, but it might have some potential as well. Looking at it again, I might have to do some more work on it, but there’s some possibilities.

I’m not sure how, when, or what format I’ll be releasing these works, but I’m thinking about it more than I used to. There’s a lot more options out there now in this century than there was in the last one.

Watch this space for further (if any) updates.


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  1. I was born in Illinois (outside Chicago), but I’ve lived for the vast majority of my life in Iowa, so I consider it my home state. ↩︎
  2. By this I mean my prose writing. A good portion of the poetry I’ve written has been inspired by my Iowa surroundings, especially the rivers I’ve lived by. ↩︎
  3. The upcoming sequel (Working title: The Fool 2) will have at least a couple of scenes set in Iowa, however. Call it a homecoming for our main character, the veteran journalist Samuel “Sonny” Turner. ↩︎
  4. The links up here and below are shameless self-promotions for my work. Go ahead and click on them to find out more about what I’ve written. Spoiler alert: when it comes to subject matter, I’m all over the place, lol. ↩︎
  5. It’s now defunct as of last year due to a few controversies. ↩︎
  6. Ernest Hemingway always said the first (rough) draft was always the worst, right? ↩︎

I’m Going Back to Iowa (in my Fiction)

I might have mentioned previously that for someone who was raised and has lived primarily in Iowa for the vast majority of his life, I’ve not set much of the books I have written in the state.

My first book, The Holy Fool, had a protagonist who was born in Iowa but otherwise had little connection with the state

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. The Yank Striker series has no connection whatsoever with Iowa. On the other hand, my poetry does have a pretty strong connection with the state.

I also wrote two unpublished manuscripts that were essentially young adult crime fiction, both of which were based in Iowa. I briefly wrote about one of those books way early in my time blogging (a few years ago) but not the second one in my A Writer’s Biography series that I bring out every once in a while over the past several years. Next month for Prose Night, I’m considering revisiting those books and rewriting that A Writer’s Biography entry to explain it in more detail.

The point is, for a while I tried to avoid writing fiction based in Iowa for the past several years. My plan here tonight is to explain in part why that was the case, and what changed my mind.


Why I Stayed Away From Iowa in My Fiction

If I was going to pinpoint the main reason, it would be I didn’t want to limit myself from a storytelling standpoint.

In all honesty, the book series I have published and am now working on getting published were very personal stories to me. The Holy Fool (which is now turning into The Fool series) was based on my experiences with and observations of American journalism. The Yank Striker series was based on my love for the sport of soccer and my interest in sports superstardom as well. Those stories never felt like they belonged in Iowa because, well, Iowa is a pretty modest-sized media market and we don’t have any top-flight non-collegiate teams in the state, much less soccer clubs. I wanted to tell my stories no matter what their settings were, and I’m glad I’ve gotten those opportunities.


What’s Changed, or Why Iowa Now?

If I’m to be honest with myself, I would say I have a few reasons to now consider writing fiction based in Iowa, which are a mix of the personal and the practical.

  1. As I’m getting older, I have more of a draw to the place I have spent a majority of my life. I in no way see Iowa as a paradise or a perfect place, but I have affection for many of the things (the land, the rivers, the pace of life) which are positive parts of my lifelong home. I will always be an Iowan, no matter where I live in the future, and thus I feel a compulsion to address in an artistic fashion something that helped make me who I am.
  2. After my previous attempts at creating home-based fiction, I’m feeling more confident in my skills as a writer not to screw up a story based in Iowa. I’m not worried that I’m not going to produce an “authentic” Iowa novel like The Bridges of Madison County, A Thousand Acres, or Gilead. My Iowa experience is just as valid as anyone else’s, despite the fact (as I often tell friends and students) I have never lived closer than three miles to a corn field.
  3. I finally feel like I have a few stories I’d be able to tell best here in Iowa. For years, my political viewpoints and philosophies have been poking through at various points in my published work in a subtle manner. For some time now, I’ve felt a creative urge to address what is going on in my country, what’s going on in my state, in a meaningful and original way. Rather than try to write some sort of meta-commentary on America or The Great American Novel (however it is or isn’t defined), I’ve gotten the idea to shrink my literary focus closer to home and how it does or might affect people on a local level. Frankly, most of our national leaders nowadays aren’t really intriguing characters to build a story around. I’d rather take a look at these themes from a different perspective, and I think there’s a lot of potential for an intriguing story.
  4. I would be remiss, however, if I didn’t mention one more, entirely practical, consideration:
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Yes, financial. It has not gone unnoticed by me that many of the Iowan and Midwestern book enthusiasts I have encountered at book shows and events around the state over the past few years are particularly interested in fiction based in Iowa and the region. If I have some compelling stories to tell based in Iowa, why not tell them? Why not go after those local dollars and give these readers something compelling?
I don’t consider this selling out. I consider this to be a way to get more people reading my books and wanting more of them. If this is what gets reader’s attentions, then I’m all for it. I want readers, end of story, and if it is a financial benefit for me, all the better.


As of right now, I don’t have a publisher for these Iowa stories. I very well might go the self-publishing route, although I’m not sure about it at the moment. There are some Midwest-based publishers I might try to pitch on this, especially a couple I’ve been interested in working with for a while.

With that in mind, I will continue to update you on these as well as my other projects. Hope you (especially all my subscribers in the Midwest) might be interested in them when they come to fruition.


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  1. The upcoming sequel (Working title: The Fool 2) will have at least a couple of scenes set in Iowa, however. Call it a homecoming for our main character, the veteran journalist Samuel “Sonny” Turner. ↩︎

Prose Night at the Writing Life, 14 June 2025: A look at a new sequel

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Hi, there, welcome to Prose Night at the Writing Life. I’ve been giving you, my readers, some sneak peeks into some of my works in progress, among other offerings. Tonight will be similar to last month, as you’ll see possibly the beginning section of my latest book1.


The book I’m talking about is the newly imagined sequel to my book The Holy Fool, the first novel I ever had published in 2019. In all honesty, the book had been in the planning process for several years prior to publication, a slowly simmering stew of thriller and the themes of the decline and fall of traditional media in the United States. As both an American and a former journalist myself, the story that cooked and matured over those years grew into something I was compelled to write.

Since the events of the book took place during the heated presidential election of 2008 and the beginnings of what became The Great Recession, it technically was historical fiction when it came out. Part of the theme of the book was the idea journalism as it existed was not sustainable in the way it had been back in the 19th and 20th centuries. Whether it was a combination of the rules changing or technologies making old journalistic mediums obsolete, my main character, the newspaper columnist and eventual blogger Sonny Turner, was seeing this as it happened, and part of his journey was exploring whether there was another way to tell the truth about the world as he saw it.

I don’t claim to be as much of a prognosticator as H.G. Wells, Jules Verne, William Gibson, or many other science fiction writers, but I do think I sensed where trends were going. And as American journalism continued to face challenges in the current political environment, I began to wonder what Sonny and his colleagues might have to say about it.

It was an intriguing idea, but I didn’t just want to return to a character I began writing nearly a decade ago just to put out a new book for publication. However, the story that eventually presented itself I thought was compelling enough to attract reader interest. At least, it was interesting enough to start writing.

When we last left Sonny Turner, it was Labor Day 2009, and he was launching his brand-new news web site, The Fool (which will serve as the title of the series) in Switzerland, under investigation for publishing secret US government files on the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan. More than fifteen years later, we’ll rejoin Sonny as he observes events in the US from his new home in Switzerland.


Election Night 2024

An excerpt from The Fool 2

6 November 2024, Geneva, Switzerland, offices of The Fool

He started at the screens, waiting for them to hit him with the bad news.

Sam “Sonny” Turner sat in the main conference room of The Fool, an independent non-profit news site now celebrating its fifteenth year of operations. The conference room was one of the larger walled-off spaces in The Fool’s offices. On one side of the conference room was a massive whiteboard, and on the other side were nine wide-screen televisions mounted on the wall, tuned to different media outlets on either side of the Atlantic. With the six-hour time difference between New York and Geneva, he could easily tell the American outlets from their nighttime scenes and the British and European outlets with their morning scenes.

Sonny, who had founded The Fool and served as its executive editor, knew there were a couple of staff reporters both there in Geneva and in the US were liveblogging the US elections, but The Fool was not doing a live webcast. His organization had never been considered part of what some quaintly called the “mainstream media.” Its offices only occupied a single floor of a former factory in the Plainpalais section of Geneva and had no other offices, although it had correspondents in various European countries, North America, and other locations.

He knew he might have to put together a column for the site after they called the race, and he had already drafted out two different versions, depending on who won. I’ll have to do a video too, he grumbled to himself. I always look like an ass on video.

Sonny was American, although he had not lived in America for sixteen years and had not even set foot in America for three. His staff was a mix of American expats and Europeans, some who had been with him from the beginning and a rash of other younger recruits Sonny could not help seeing as kids. Most of the older ones were Americans and the younger ones were Swiss, Europeans, and expats from some other locations, including some from West Africa and places like Hong Kong.

Sixteen years. I’ve been here for twice as long as I was at the Chicago Journal full-time. I thought I was going to spend my entire career in newspapers, like Gus and Ed did. But I forgot it was the 21st century, not the 20th. And I couldn’t stay out of trouble, either.

He leaned back in the black leather office chair, a white handle-less mug full of chicory-blend coffee he imported from some company in New Orleans, as he watched the muted screens of American maps begin to fill with blue and a lot more red. Sonny had turned forty-eight that year. He had a beer-barrel body, with a thick chest and short but muscled arms and legs. His close-cut chestnut brown hair and beard were infiltrated with iron grey, and he had narrowed, dark brown russet eyes. He dressed in a black and gold University of Iowa hoodie, black athletic shorts, and black Nike sandals worn over white socks. The main reason he wasn’t grossly overweight was because he walked most places nowadays, made use of the small weight room at the office, and had started using one of the new weight loss drugs a couple years back.

Sonny was alone in the conference room. There were the half-dozen people in the main newsroom, the overnight crew holding down the fort until the day team showed up. Nobody had disturbed him yet, at least not any staff. He heard the glass door creak open.

“They called it yet?” Josephine “Joey” Holverson called out.

“Once Ohio goes to him, I think that’ll be it.”

“Yeah.” She pulled up an office chair and sat next to him with her own handless coffee mug. Glancing over at him, she reached out with her right hand to take the left hand resting on his leg. “You all right?”

“Not looking forward to recording a video about this rubbish,” he grumbled. That prompted a giggle from Joey.

Sonny couldn’t help but smile as she rubbed his arm. Joey always claimed not to be conventionally pretty – she thought her mouth was too wide, her nose too prominent, her hazel eyes more squinty than gleaming, and she always thought her hips too wide for her frame. But all Sonny had eyes for was her, after years of semi-successful dates and relationships with other women. Only a couple of laugh lines at the corners of her eyes hinted at her true age of forty-three.

He’d gotten to know Joey at the Chicago Journal intimately during the last few months of his employment there. Unlike Sonny, Joey hadn’t been looking to make journalism a career – her work as an administrative assistant and staff writer for the Arts and Entertainment desk had been a way for her to help pay the bills while she was finishing up her studies at the Chicago Art Institute.

When she agreed to leave the US with him after he quit the Journal, it was a surprise. He remembered how he had bought her a plane ticket to return to the US right when they arrived in Switzerland, just in case she ever changed her mind. Within a year, she had him sell the ticket and then they got married a few months later. She had worked for the past several years as Design Director for The Fool, creating its iconic logo and oversaw the visual design of its web pages. This past year, she had been training some of her subordinates to take over the role from her so she could retire from the paper and continue her independent artwork, featured in galleries throughout Switzerland, Europe, and even back home in the United States. In addition to her artwork, she had some other priorities she wanted to pay more attention to as well.

C’est quoi cette merde?” a young girl’s voice called out from the door to the conference room.

“Sam, language,” Joey said.

“Yeah, Mère, it’s language. It’s French,” Samantha Victoria Holverson Turner said.

“Yes, quite the joke,” Joey sighed.

Less than a year after Sonny and Joey had married, Samantha had come along. Joey thought about naming their first child Samuel Turner Jr., but when it turned out to be a girl, she went with Samantha.

Now fourteen years old, Sam was an echo of her mother’s old high school yearbook photos, except for the squared jaw and more prominent brow of her father. She grew up speaking French alongside English and now spoke better German than her parents. Sam shared her mother’s talent for art and both her parents’ tendency toward black and obscure humor.

Scheiße, was ist das?” said a second voice, a younger boy.

“You don’t have permission to start swearing all over the place, either,” Sonny growled. “Don’t you all got school to get to today?”

“Today’s a… what do you call it when the teachers have to be in school to work but the students don’t?” Edward “Eddie” John Holverson Turner said.

Sonny nodded. “Back in the US, they called those in-service days.”

“Well, I forget what the school called them, but it’s that,” Eddie said. “Don’t worry, we’ll get cereal in a bit.”

Eddie sat down at one of the chairs around the conference table next to Sonny while his sister decided to stand. Eddie was twelve and built like his dad, but with his mother’s wider mouth and hazel eyes. He had a wide variety of interests, from hiking in some of the nearby mountains, tabletop gaming, and boating and fishing in Lake Geneva and the nearby Rhone River when he had time. He’d inherited or gained an interest in writing from his father. Unlike him, Eddie preferred writing fantasy and science fiction rather than any journalistic bent. This was despite his willingness to entertain his father’s tales of reporting and the fact he was named after two of his father’s late professional mentors, Journal editor Jack DeFoe and columnist Ed Mazur.

I thought I was going to live in Switzerland for a little bit, and now I’ve lived here a third of my life, Sonny thought as he smiled at both his kids. I thought I might have kids at some point, but I wasn’t expecting to have Swiss kids. They grew up speaking French and German while it was a slog for me and Joey to learn them. They’ve got dual US and Swiss citizenship, but I have to explain America to them. They don’t know about it at all except what they see on television and the Internet.

In the middle drawer of his desk back at his apartment downstairs, he had two passports: a dark blue one with the Great Seal of the United States and a bright red one with a white cross near the top right-hand corner. He and Joey had finally gotten Swiss citizenship back in 2020 and later qualified their children to gain it as well. Both the kids were surprised when he gave them their passports and told them they were Swiss citizens, because they had thought they already were. Sonny had to explain to them Switzerland didn’t give citizenship to people just because they were born there like America did.

“Don’t worry, Poppa,” Eddie said. “We’ll go back to the flat and make something for breakfast.”

“We’ve got bacon and eggs in the fridge, and frozen waffles in the freezer,” Joey said. “Coffee should be on downstairs, too.” The kids had each started to make their own simple meals halfway through elementary school thanks to Joey’s instructions and started cooking for the entire family by the time Eddie had made it to middle school.

“You want some for both of you?” Sam asked.

“Wouldn’t say no,” Sonny said.

“Okay, Pops, we’ll get on it,” Sam said. She reached over and swatted Eddie on the shoulder. “C’mon, sooner we start, sooner we eat.”

Sonny saw a flash on one of the screens, one of them in the top left corner of the wall. “There it is,” he said, certainty in his voice. “That’s it.”

He pointed to the screen. It was the election coverage of Fox News. The chyron at the bottom of the screen announced Donald Trump would become the next president of the United States of America.

“Do you think they’re wrong?” Joey whispered to him. “You think they’re trying to lie about it?”

Sonny was silent for a long moment. He considered all the current vote counts he’d tracked on the screens in front of him, on his iPhone. He played with the numbers in his head, from other sources as well as Fox. He knew the answer. “Naw, he’s got this. The other networks might wait a while to call it, but he’s got this.”

“The fuck?” Joey gasped, then covered her mouth as she glanced at the kids. Sonny draped an arm around her and kissed her on the temple.

“I’m sorry,” Sonny said.

“Not your fault.”

“Poppa? What’s going to happen? Is everything all right?” Eddie asked.

Sonny sighed. “We’ll be all right,” he tried to reassure them. “Don’t know about America, though.”

“Aren’t we Americans, though?” Eddie replied.

Sort of. “Well, you’re not just Americans, though. We’re Swiss, too. You’ll be all right. You going to make breakfast? We just had coffee down here; I’m beginning to get hungry.”

Sam nodded. “I know you want hog, not charcoal for bacon, right?”

“My girl,” he said.

“You want scrambled eggs or an omelet?” Eddie asked.

Sonny shrugged. “Either way. If you make omelets, make sure you use Swiss or Provolone, not American cheese, yeah?”

“Got it, Pops.”

“Did you walk Buddy?” Buddy was the kid’s new beagle pup, which had taken the place of Sonny’s late lamented beagle Pica, who had passed away at sixteen years old the previous year.

“Yes, Mére, before we got here,” Sam said.

“All right.”

Sam leaned over and kissed both parents on the tops of their heads. As she led Eddie out the door, she turned to them. “Sorry,” she said. “Love you both.”

“Love you too, girl,” Sonny said, and Joey repeated the same.

After the kids walked out of the room, Joey leaned her head on his shoulder for a while. “Fuck this,” she muttered, doing her best to shake her head.

Sonny stroked the top of Joey’s head. “Are you going to be all right?”

“Like you said, I might be all right, but I don’t know about everyone back home. I’m worried this idiot is going to enact The Handmaiden’s Tale to piss off women and start up a police state.”

“Didn’t happen last time, though not for lack of trying,”

“This is different, though, and you know it. He’s gotten rid of everyone who told him ‘no’ before. He’s more senile. He’s going to do whatever he wants, and the only thing he cares about is getting money or women.”

“You’re right,” Sonny said. “Still, it’s not like other governments were that perfect. Shoot, I still remember how screwed up GWB’s administration was, and I didn’t return to the US when Obama took over. That jerk had me under federal investigation for six years.”

“Oh, come on, you know it’s different,” Joey moaned. “At least Bush’s people acted like they knew what they were doing. This crowd isn’t even going to pretend. Don’t tell me you’re thinking like those other corporate media people.”

Sonny sighed at that. “No, I know it’s different. It was always headed this way … but it’s different.”

Joey looked up and at the digital clock in the conference room showing the time in Chicago, Washington, D.C., Geneva, Beijing, and Tokyo. “You going to post something?”

“Yeah, I’ve already got the column ready to go; I’ll send it out once the rest of the US journos call it too. And a quick video. No need for a massive speech right now,” Sonny replied as he got up.

“You recording it now?”

“Naw, headed back to my office to call someone.”

“Who’s that?”

“You know who.”

“Ugh,” Joey said. “You think he’s still up at this hour?”

“You know he is, the old dog.”

#

“Sonny boy! To what do I owe the pleasure of your company?” Arthur “Gus” Pulaski called out in a brighter and livelier tone than his appearance would suggest.

“Jeez, Gus, aren’t you getting any sleep tonight?” Sonny said over the Zoom link.

“You’re one to talk,” Gus chuckled from his desk in the half-filled newsroom of the Chicago Journal. “You’re still up.”

“We’re six hours ahead of you, Gus, remember? I got seven hours asleep and woke up to the nonsense of Washington. What’s your excuse?”

Gus shrugged. “It’s the business, Sonny, you know how it is. It’s the business.”

Gus had devoted all his almost fifty years of professional career in journalism to the Journal. He’d started freelancing for the paper after just turning 20 years old, the same year Sonny was born, and had risen from beat reporter to copy editor, city editor, and managing editor shortly after Sonny left the paper after eight years of full-time service. Carlo Massino had been the editor in chief since Sonny’s departure up until four years ago, when he’d accepted a job running the University of Pennsylvania’s journalism school. Even though Gus had been within grasp of qualifying for Medicare back then, there was nobody else who would seriously challenge him for the role of editor in chief. It was his time, Sonny thought.

Now, as Sonny glanced at his one-time mentor through the screen, he started to wonder if Gus’ time was already up. The white light from the long tracks of overhead fluorescent bulbs did Gus no favors, but Sonny had a feeling there would still be a greenish-grayish tinge to Gus’ complexion. Now sixty-eight years old, what remained of his white hair gathered above and behind his ears, completing a semi-circle at the back of his head. Gus had been an overweight 280 pounds or so when he first knew him, but now it looked like he’d lost about forty pounds, skin sagging on his neck and arms. Sonny had no faith in his amateur diagnostic prowess, but something was tripping the old reporter’s intuition. He’s not doing well.

“So, what’s your plans now that Orange is back in charge?”

“Sonny…” Gus began, then sighed. “What we always do when this happens. We get in contact with his press office or transitional team and we start reporting again.”

“You think it’s going to be like normal?” Sonny said, trying to keep his voice gentle. “His people barely talked with you the first time around. You guys got maybe two in-person interviews with him in four years. As much as he and his boys lied to your face, I don’t even think those interviews were worth the trouble you went through to get them.”

“You’ve got to engage with people in power, Sonny, that’s what I always taught you, right? Even if you don’t agree with their beliefs, you got to engage with them.”

Sonny shook his head. “That assumes they aren’t going to lie about stuff like whether the sky is blue or if there’s salt in the oceans. I mean, we’ve been headed this way for a long time, ever since we got squeamish about saying someone lied when they lied.”

“We put it in the headline when he lied, all the time!” Gus shot back. “You know better than to say that about us.”

“You guys did better than most, although your wording was mushy,” Sonny replied. “He’s been making you guys the enemy ever since ’15. I keep telling you, you all can’t cover him like he’s some podunk senator from the good old days. It’s more like covering Putin, Duerte, or Pinochet or Franco. You’re in enemy territory, brother. We’ve been treating the White House and the government like that ever since we got started. We’re not begging to be in the stenographer pool.”

“Notice you’re happy enough to use our coverage of his press conferences on your site,” Gus chuckled.

“Fair point, but we’re not using it as the basis for our coverage,” Sonny said. “We’re working our sources in the shadows, not taking what they say on face value – like you taught me to do, Gus.”

“I know.” Gus leaned back in his cracked black leather office chair and sighed. “So, what are your guys going to be doing?”

“Same as we’ve been doing the past fifteen years. Stay lean, stay mean, and find the stories people in power don’t want found.”

“Well, if what you’re saying is true, your guys over here might have to look over their shoulders going forward.”

“Don’t I know it.” Sonny sighed as he examined his friend through the screen. “Hell, Gus, when are you going to take a step back? You’re overdue for one; nobody can say you didn’t do anything for the Journal.”

“You say that, but you didn’t say anything to Ed when he worked right up until he kicked it,” Gus snorted.

“Ed was working part time, and he wasn’t in charge of the whole place,” Sonny retorted in disbelief. “That’s a big difference.”

“It’s going to be that easy for you to step back, once you get to where I’m at?”

“Maybe easier than you might think.”

“I’ll remember that fifteen years from now and see if you change your mind.”

“I hope you are around in fifteen years, but you won’t be at the rate you’re going.”

“Fuck,” Gus breathed. “That was a low blow, Sonny.”

“I’m telling the truth, though, aren’t I? Look, give yourself another title, Editor Emeritus or something like that. Come in Mondays and Fridays, mentor whoever takes over for you. Talk to the kids coming in and show them how to do their jobs. There have to be candidates to take over your job, some good people there.”

Gus was quiet for a few moments. “Randy Barber here’s been a good managing editor. He’s about your age, but I don’t have a feel for whether he’d want the big job.”

“I’d ask him. Even if he says no, at least you know you need to get recruiting.”

“All of the younger guys out here seem to want to join up with you nowadays,” Gus said with a smile.

“If you need to poach a couple of my guys to fill out your ranks, go right ahead. But honestly, with all the people other newspapers and television newsrooms cut over the past decade or two, you should be able to find at least a few seasoned guys willing to jump back into the journalism pond. How are you guys doing, really?”

Gus shrugged. “Wouldn’t say we’re seeing massive growth, but we’re stable enough to keep the lights on. How about you all?”

“Oh, we’re doing pretty well, actually. Low overhead and everything help out a bit.”

“I’m sure… hey, who’s that I see?”

Sonny glanced over his right shoulder to see Eddie hovering behind him. “What’s up, kid?”

“Is that Eddie I see? Wow, you’ve grown since the last time your dad shared those pictures.”

“You remember Gus from the Journal, right?” Sonny said.

“Sure, I do. Hello, Gus,” Eddie said with a wave.

“What’s up, kid?”

“We’ve got breakfast ready to go and brought it upstairs from the flat,” Eddie said. “Mother said to fetch you to come eat.”

“All right. Tell Mom I’ll be down in a couple of minutes.”

“D’accord, Papa,” Eddie said with a pat on the shoulder, then he departed.

“How old is he again, kid?”

“Twelve.”

“Christ, I am getting old. I remember seeing his baby pics. And he really speaks French?”

“Talks more in French than English, but part of that is us living here in Geneva,” Sonny replied. “He has a good handle on German, too. I remember you and Ed talking about raising kids and all the stuff to expect, but I didn’t expect to be raising Swiss kids.”

“They seem bright as hell, speaking more than one language. It’s a good problem to have.”

“Your kids?”

“Doing fine.”

Sonny nodded. “Well, family calls. Think about what I said. And whatever you need logistically, just call me, all right?”

“Will do.”

“Take care, Boss.”

“You too, Kid.”

#

At about 11:45 p.m., Sonny stepped into a small room in The Fool’s offices that served as a broadcast location for the site. CBS, the Associated Press, and other news organizations had officially called the race for Trump just after 5:30 a.m. New York time.

“Everything up on the teleprompter?” Sonny asked Henri Roche, who was one of the tech staff for The Fool.

“Everything’s ready to go,”Henri said in French.

Bon,” Sonny replied, then continued in French, “We’re going to do this live – no sense in editing this. One take should be all we need, anyway.”

“D’accord.”

Sonny sat down, straightened the sport coat he was wearing over a black The Fool polo shirt, and acknowledged Henri counting down to when they went live.

“Hello, everyone, Sonny Turner, executive editor for The Fool here,” he began, now back to English. “At this point, you have probably heard the news that Donald Trump has again been elected president of the United States, if not in a landslide, then at least by a solid lead in the Electoral College. There will be plenty of journalists, pundits, politicos, and ordinary people seeking to spread their opinions on this matter to all willing to read or listen. I’m not here to add to those opinions today, but to discuss, in brief, our plans for how to cover the events which are to come.

“This year, The Fool celebrated its fifteenth anniversary,” Sonny continued. “During those years, we evolved from a news organization made up mostly of American expatriates to a multinational one, with staff and correspondents from not just throughout Europe but the world. We’re a nonprofit organization interested not in profit margins and investor happiness but getting accurate information about your world to you, about journalism in its purest sense.

“If we have an editorial philosophy here at The Fool, it is that those with power in our world need to be held to account and their actions need to be known to everyone. No one person or entity in our society should hold unlimited or unchecked power over others, and we as journalists need to make people aware of when things aren’t working right in our world.

“On this issue, The Fool has been consistent no matter who in power has been at fault. I was wrongly accused of espionage under the waning days of the Bush Administration, but it was President Obama’s administration which pursued the case for six years before the federal courts dismissed it. We’ve investigated instances of how the Obama Administration pursued whistleblowers and the corruption evident when the first Trump Administration took office. And we questioned the fitness of both Biden and Trump to run for president, given their advanced age and health issues. But The Fool doesn’t believe in both-siderism. If this incoming administration commits wrongdoing, we’re going to report it, not try to downplay it to get access to those in power or to placate the ruling class.

“We’ve also turned our eyes toward the world outside the US, and despite our limited resources, I believe we have done as well, and in some cases, better than nearly every US-based journalistic organization and some outside the US of covering the world perspective and its issues. I’m proud of our coverage of the machinations behind the Leave vote and Brexit in the UK, its aftermath, and the Tory Party’s abdication of responsibility for those and other conditions. We’ve shared reporting from Hungary, Russia, and Turkey regarding the lives of people under autocratic rule, the decline and fall of democracy in Hong Kong, and the wars in Ukraine and Syria, among other issues.

“So, if you want to know how The Fool is going to cover Donald Trump, it’s the same way we’ve covered him and others in the past – straightforwardly and in plain language,” Sonny concluded. “We are going to be objective as possible, but we are not going to look out our windows, see a hurricane approaching, and merely tell you there might be more rain than usual. That’s how I was taught journalism should be, and it’s the philosophy The Fool and our fantastic staff follow as well. Thank you.”

He waited until the camera light went off, then sat up. “Looked good, Boss.”

The door came open and a rubber-limbed man close to Sonny’s age stuck his head framed with frizzy light brown and gray hair and a hawk nose. Unlike Sonny’s attempt at dressing up for the cameras, he wore a Daniel Johnston art T-shirt, strategically slashed Levis, and black Chuck Taylors despite the fact he now used foam inserts in them.

“Great speech, Boss. Any plan for the moment?” said Jeff “Woot” Mackenzie, The Fool’s chief information and technology officer and a fellow refugee from the Chicago Journal.

Sonny nodded. “Get Dieter and the rest of the lads together in the conference room. See which of the correspondents might be able to join in on Zoom.”

“So, an all-hands meeting?”

“I’m not one of those Silicone Valley pricks… but I guess yeah. Nobody gets fired if they don’t show up, but I’d like to see them there if they can.”

“On it,” Woot said.

#


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Prose Night at the Writing Life, 10 May 2025: Kayfabe Stories

Hi, there, welcome to Prose Night, where I post either original essays, short stories, or excerpts of works in progress (or some equivalent). It’s going to be one of the latter items today, and I’m looking forward to sharing this sneak peek to you.


Those of you who have visited my Substack will know I have been working on something I have entitled, up to this point, The Untitled Pro Wrestling Project or a similar working title (I’m too lazy to look up what I called it before, lol). I have given readers a couple of glances at this project previously, as I’ve started to examine a new fictional world featuring a family of professional wrestlers.

My previous explorations have been looks into this world, but I’m not quite sure whether they will end up in a book or whether they will remain false starts, so to speak, into this world. However, they have helped me to refine what I am exploring, what the shape of the world will be.

I’ve mentioned previously I’m a bit nervous about giving books an official title until I’m closer to publishing them. However, this project is no longer small. By project, I mean a book series. By no longer small, I mean in excess of 50,000 words written in rough draft format, just screwing around and experimenting. I don’t think I can leave the entire series unnamed, even as early in the creative process as I am.

So, from here on out, I’ll be referring to this series as the Kayfabe Stories series. Kayfabe, for those not familiar, is the portrayal of events in the professional wrestling business as reality when they are, in fact, staged, and has also evolved into becoming a reference to professional wrestling culture at large. I’ve discussed here how this culture has been leaking into/influencing real life before, in a way a longtime fan of the sport like me can recognize.

So, I’ve been trying to refine how I’m going to approach this story, but my main introduction into this world is a young man and aspiring writer, Robbie Traynor, who is on the verge of having one of his professional dreams come true. However, the ghosts of his past seem to be visiting him. Let’s take a look with a short excerpt which might be the way I introduce Robbie to readers. Hope you enjoy.


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The Letter and the Story

A Kayfabe Stories excerpt by Jason Liegois

January 2017, Cook County, Minnesota

The letter had been in Robbie’s hands for three hours.

He’d opened it already, the yellow letterhead from the University of Iowa clearly on the front addressed to Robert John Traynor. Robbie had already read what was inside, but he still could visualize the words: Congratulations upon your acceptance to the College of Liberal Arts and Sciences Program in Creative Writing… better known as the Iowa Writers’ Workshop.

It had been a small little dream of his, something that flickered into life, a slender candle and a delicate flame kindled in his head at the start of his high school days, cupped hands protecting it from unfriendly gusts of wind and the skeptical eyes of his classmates. Writing had been his refuge from the chaos in his life. He’d long wanted to be a working writer, to learn from those who could do it best. Now, after all the work he’d put in at high school, at the University of Minnesota, where he was due to graduate in May with honors, he was less than a year away from studying one of the oldest and most prestigious graduate creative writing programs in America.

This would have been a day he would have liked to be out on the deck just outside the spare bedroom his mom and her brother, his uncle Jerry, had converted one summer into his writing space. But fresh snow blew from the winds coming in from the west and settled across the deck, so he instead sat behind his writing desk that looked out through the windows onto the open deck, which was above a screened-in porch that overlooked their outdoor pool and hot tub below and Lake Superior in the distance.

His family home was tucked into the woods a couple miles southwest from the tourist town of Grand Marais, where he had attended school. The home was a sprawling two-story, five-bedroom edifice with a four-car garage and furnished basement, clad in white aluminum siding and a black steel roof the winter snow slid away from. His mother had admitted it was too big for the family back when she, Robbie, Robbie’s father, and Robbie’s elder sister lived in the home. His parents were long divorced, his sister moved away to Long Island to further her new career, and he was only a part-time resident. Now the place seemed cavernous, just another example of how his family was privileged above most others.

“Robbie? Can I come in?” he heard behind him.

He nodded. “Sure, Mom.”

Julie Traynor eased past the open door. She was now past her fiftieth birthday, but she kept herself in shape with frequent yoga practice and hikes in the nearby woods. Slim and petite, she had a heart-shaped face and a mouth that rested in a crooked grin. Her typical golden-brown tan was only slightly paler than its summer glory thanks to the conservative use of a tanning bed in the basement. Her straight shoulder-length hair gathered up in a messy ponytail was a lighter maple brown than the darker chestnut of her son. He’d inherited that from his father, as he did the muscular build he kept in tune through weight training and MMA practice, but he’d inherited her amber eyes.

Julie dressed much like her son in University of Minnesota hooded sweatshirt and pants, although one difference was the white gold ladies watch and the variety of gold and platinum rings, none of them a wedding band, she sported on either hand. “You have to keep up appearances,” she’d always say.

Julie came behind Robbie as he sat in his black leather office chair and didn’t quite manage to wrap her arms all the way around his shoulders. “You know I’m so proud of you.”

“I know,” Robbie nodded.

“Did Jordan get in touch with you, send you her congratulations? Sometimes I think she’s scatterbrained…”

“Ma, her flight just landed in Heathrow an hour ago,” Robbie exclaimed. “We talked twenty minutes ago, and she couldn’t have been happier.”

“Me neither.” She turned him to the right so he could face her as she knelt before him, patting him on the leg. “I know how much you wanted this, Robbie, how hard you worked at it. And you got it all on your own, not because of who your father or mother are or where you’re from. This was all you.”

“I know, Ma,” he said, smiling.

She cupped his right cheek with his hand. “I have a baby who is about to go off to grad school,” she said, shaking her head. “Unbelievable.”

“You’re acting like I’m not of legal drinking age or something,” he scoffed. “This has been coming for a while, you know. I suppose you could move to Iowa City with me for the next two years…”

“Not on your life,” she chuckled, getting up. “For better or worse, this is my home now, even if I have to hire a cleaning service to keep things up. But you’d better not replace all your Minnesota swag with Iowa Hawkeye gear, or I’ll never hear the end of it from my friends.”

“Gotta blend in, Ma,” he chuckled.

“Anyway.”

“What’s the plan?”

She glanced out at the blowing winds and snow collecting on the deck. “Thank goodness we got the deep freezes all stocked before today. Weatherman says we’ve got this throughout the weekend. What would you think about stuffed pork chops, green beans, and stuffing?”

“Wouldn’t say no to it at all. Need any help with it?”

“With just us two? Never mind. I imagine you might want to get some writing done before dinner.”

“Yeah, might be a good idea. I’ll do that, eat and take care of dishes for you, then get a workout before checking emails and getting another writing session in.”

“All right,” she said, leaning over to kiss him on the forehead. “Have a good time. Congratulations and love you.”

“Love you too, Mom,” he said as she left.

When he was sure his mother was not only out of his writing space but well on her way down the stairs and to the kitchen on the ground floor, it was only then that he went back to his laptop and started to boot it up again.

As part of his application to the Writer’s Workshop, he’d had to submit something to the selection committee, either a set of poems for those entering the poetry track or either one or two short stories or selections from a larger work for those on the fiction track. He now started searching for the piece he’d submitted to the Writer’s Workshop.

For most of his short time as a writer, he’d considered himself a lover of fantasy fiction. He’d long been a fan of writers like Tolkien, Lloyd Alexander, and others, as well as newer traditional fantasy writers like Robert Jordan, Brandon Sanderson and those classified as “urban” fantasy authors like Jim Butcher and Laurell K. Hamilton. During his years in high school and college, he’d dabbled in short stories along these lines, and had even toyed with two novel-length fantasy projects later when he was at U.M. He’d occasionally shown his mother and sister the results of his efforts, and they’d always approve of them and encourage him.

When he’d first started to plan his application to Iowa, though, he wondered whether those previous efforts would get the program’s attention. Despite its reputation, it was not opposed to genre writing, although it was certainly one of the homes – indeed, one of the crucibles of literary fiction. He knew many successful attendees of the program needed to apply multiple times before acceptance, so he got the feeling he’d have to up his game with his submission.

One evening last year, after he’d admittedly gotten well into a six-pack of nine-percent IPA dark ale brewed in St. Paul, he’d begun a new story far different than any he’d written up until then. He hadn’t shown it to either his mother or sister – “I don’t want to jinx myself,” he’d told Mom, and she and Jordan accepted the explanation – and he was unsure whether he ever would as he opened the file. While he’d previously written about sacred quests, mysterious sea voyages into unknown waters, and warring magical beings in the depths of New York, what he’d come up with for his submission was something completely different.

The older man glowered in the corner of the squared circle, holding himself up off the canvas with the assistance of the top ring ropes. He was a study in a modest layer of fat above hardened gristle and solid bone, guarded as he straightened what remained of his dark pompadour over his head. The man disregarded entirely the boos of the audience and the occasional shower of beer and spit from them. But his eyes widened as he considered not the rabid fans, but the approach of his opponent to the ring.

The young man, broad-shouldered and taller than his adversary, strolled toward the ring, unconcerned with the surrounding crowds or their reaction. He was dressed in jeans, a leather jacket, and battered cowboy boots held together with duct tape. In his right hand, he wielded a baseball bat with a coil of rusty barbed wire wrapped around and nailed to it. In his left hand, he had a steel-linked chain wrapped around his fist.

He glanced at the old man with an invigorating mix of joy and hate. “Hey, Dad,” he shouted loud enough so it carried over the crowd, “glad to see you again.” Resting the bat against his right shoulder, he started to make his way up the steel steps to enter the ring.

Robbie couldn’t figure it out. Most of his fiction had been well constructed worlds where his imagination could run rampant and explore new characters and new situations. This was something different, a timebomb made up of his fears and resentments planted right on the page. He’d never tried to bring his personal life into his fiction, and now it was right there, ready to blow up. He’d typed up the scene before he could stop himself, in part because he never felt like he had to stop himself from writing something before.

Every instinct told him to delete it before it got any bigger. However, Robbie thought he probably should keep it. Every student at the workshop would have a master’s thesis project, either a book-length manuscript or a series of short stories for fiction writers or a series of poems for the poetry members. If this is the reason they chose me, I might need to stick with it.

Idly, he opened the file information for the story, wondering how many words he’d already committed to the idea, trying to talk himself into deleting it instead. Suddenly, his eyes fixed on the “date created” information for the file: 5/1/2016.

He recognized the date immediately. It was his father’s 6oth birthday.

Robbie groaned. He had imagined the ghosts of his family’s past were in the past, where they couldn’t hurt anyone, him especially. But now they were out of his head and on the page, where they had found fans in the program he wanted to join. He’d been on guard against his family’s past, against what it had done to his family.

But, maybe I can control it, on the page, he thought. Maybe I can write about it here, tame it, exorcise it so it doesn’t overwhelm me. I guess I’m going to have to, because even though I wanted to bury my past, it just crawled out of that damn hole I dug.


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The Book Marketing Handbook: A review

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I think I might have some idea how to write, having practiced the art seriously, as a hobby or professionally, for the past 30 years or so. As far as marketing myself or my work, however, I am still green by any standards.

People like me often look for techniques or advice for how to do so, especially methods priced well for authors who have to write and publish on a tight budget. We’re also looking for simple, straightforward advice it won’t take a long time to digest. After giving it a read, I have to say The Book Marketing Handbook: How to sell more books in the Digital Age by Robert Sims would be a good place to start for authors beginning their journey into the marketing world.

This is where I need to give full disclosure that Sims and his company, Biblio Publishing, have been the publisher of my books The Holy Fool and The Yank Striker. With this in mind, we’ll move on.

Originally released in 2014, Biblio has recently released a revised version of the book this year. Edited by Connor Mayhorn, it is a brisk 34-page read covering all aspects of online and in-person marketing.

The straightforward text is organized into “Online Marketing” and “Offline Marketing,” even though some tips (such as book cover advice) could fit into either category. It might have been helpful to further organize the smaller sections in the online and offline marketing sections, perhaps in alphabetical order, but the length of the book means you are almost sure to find whatever section you are looking for.

Some of the advice Sims gives seems almost obvious. For example, building your web site or having a presence on Facebook are things almost any author might try even on their own. However, not every author is technically savvy, so I think it is appropriate to go into this advice. Also, as a teacher, I’ve learned not to assume everyone has the same knowledge as everyone else. For example, being able to have a strong description of your book for online sites is something fundamental to that marketing, so it’s important for you to do it right and make your book compelling to read.

There were quite a few items in The Book Marketing Handbook, however, that I was entirely unfamiliar with. For instance, it covers several tips aimed at those who decide to self-publish, such as promotional tools available through Amazon’s Kindle Direct Publishing (KDP) program, where to find advice on Amazon search engine optimization, and advice on online advertising. I wasn’t too aware of how TikTok was becoming a hub for those interested in reading and talking about books, but The Book Marketing Handbook has made me rethink perhaps having a presence on there.

It also gives some good tips I was little aware of in the area of offline marketing, such as how to approach both Barnes & Noble and independent booksellers to carry your book. Other tips include programs like Lightning Source, a way to make your book available for distributors. I think these are important, especially for younger authors who may be too focused on online marketing and promotions.

I’m not a fan of every piece of advice in The Book Marketing Handbook. For example, I’m not much of a fan of Twitter at the moment, but some of the Twitter tips there could prove useful on BlueSky, especially the advice to make no more than 20 percent of your content be promotional and at least 80 percent toward giving something of value to your audience. Also, I can’t approve of its advice for lower budget authors to use AI programs to design book covers, although I do think the non-AI features of programs like Canva can give authors a more ethical design option.

However, taken in total, The Book Marketing Handbook is a great starter tool for how to reach out and promote your writing to others. I would definitely recommend it for budget-conscious writers to pick up on Amazon if they have the chance.

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Prose Night at The Writing Life, 8 March 2025: A sneak peek at my Untitled Wrestling Project in progress

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Hello, everyone.

Hello, everyone.

I’ve used this space before (Prose Night) to preview some writing projects I’ve been working on. It’s been a hot minute or two since I posted a sneak preview, so I decided you, the readers, were due for one.

You might recall I let you know I was working on a project, an Untitled Wrestling Project, as it is1. I have had a lifelong obsession with pro wrestling since I was a kid, despite my parents’ despair. At a book fair back in 2023, as I sat around a quiet crowd, the idea of a young writer exploring the world of his wrestling family and becoming drawn into such a world leaped into my consciousness.

I went ahead and wrote a short story to try out the concept, and I found I was inspired by the epic ideas raised by a storyteller raised in a family of professional wrestlers who told stories through their matches.

When it gets to the point where I’m starting to build complete family trees for my characters and begin to have conversations with characters, I need to start building a story. Like, a story already 32,500-plus words and a ways to go before the end of this book, one of a projected trilogy. And this is no different.

Let me introduce you (or reintroduce you, if you’ve read my past posts) to Robbie Traynor, a Minnesota native and brand new member of the prestigious Iowa Writer’s Workshop. He’s made an impression on his fellow students and workshop instructor Peter Lowry, with his story about a young man trying to reconnect with his professional wrestler father. However, a chance incident at a party for workshop students and faculty, hosted at the home of Robbie’s fellow student Artie, reveals the depth of Robbie’s entanglement in the wrestling world.


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Wrestling on the Tube

A fiction excerpt by Jason Liegois2.

Iowa City, Iowa, August 2017

In among the cross-talk and the regular gossip, there was a bit of writing discussion amongst the partygoers. They’d talk about what they were working on, how it was going, and what particular problems they had to overcome to keep the stories moving. Since he had been the first one to put his work forward that week, Robbie assumed he was going to get a question he wasn’t sure he wanted to answer, and he didn’t know exactly how he was going to handle it. But finally…

“So, what prompted you to use pro wrestling in your story?” Lowry said as he took a pull off one of the Corona beers he’d brought with him to the party. “Are you a fan? I’m not one, but I follow Iowa wrestling. I even visit the wrestling program here and have a chance to train with the kids.”

“You wrestled?”

“Back in college, University of Minnesota,” Lowry said. “Anyway, what connection do you have with pro wrestling?”

Robbie mind was blank as he tried to think of what to say and took a first sip from the second IPA he’d brought to the party. “Not exactly sure I’d call myself a fan, although I watched a bit of it,” he finally said. “I’m not exactly sure why I added it into the story. Shoot, when I was in high school starting out writing, I usually liked to write fantasy stuff, usually soft magic systems. I always loved laying out the worlds they took place in too.”

“It was just a lark or something?” Ike asked.

There was a long pause as Robbie tried to formulate an answer. “Maybe… it’s been something bubbling up for a while. Something I was experimenting with.”

Tono started fiddling with the remote. “You know, I think I’ve got a channel or playlist here on YouTube all on pro wrestling. Anyone want to watch?”

“Ah, you don’t have to on my account…” Robbie mumbled.

“Shoot, why not? Hey, food’s on, everyone,” Artie said. “Not like there’s anything else on, right? Go ahead Tono, find something.”

“You know, when I was a kid, we’d watch all the videos for movies about El Santo, the Man in the Silver Mask,” he responded. “Used to get a kick out of them. Should be something here… oh, hell, yeah, we got some classic wrasslin’ on. Check it.” He pushed a button.

The scene was an old arena, smoky and dingy – even the ring ropes and mat were smudged with dirt. From the pastel colors of the clothes of some of the fans and the high teased hairstyles of the female fans, the time was the 1980’s.

There was a huge, muscle-bound bald wrestler with a full black beard in the middle of the ring. He was wearing a bright red freestyle wrestling singlet with the Soviet Union’s hammer and sickle insignia on his chest, paired with black boots. He had a length of heavy chain wrapped around his right fist. He was accompanied by another large man with a darker complexion and a full black mustache, He work a full-length white thwab robe, traditional among people especially in the Arabic Peninsula, and a red and white keffiyah covered his head.

“Ladies and gentlemen, the following contest is a non-title singles match,” the arena announcer proclaimed. “Accompanied by his manager, Sheik Abdul Al Shabazz, and weighing in at 285 pounds, from Moscow, the Red Nightmare, Sasha Zhukov!”

With a roar, Zhukov raised his chain-carrying fist to a rain of boos from the crowd.

Suddenly, a manic classic rock anthem rang out over the public address speakers, all crunching guitars and Southern strut, and the crowd screamed in recognition. Robbie looked at the side of the ring which had the letters GFW stenciled in neon green and gold lettering, and he knew immediately what the announcer was going to say next.

“His opponent is the reigning GFW world heavyweight champion, and one-third of the GFW world six-man tag-team champions! From Houston, Texas, weighing in at 245 pounds… he is The Boss himself, Jack Ryder!”

Down one of the aisles came a tall wrestler with a full shoulder-length mane of suicide blond hair. He wore a gold satin jacket with THE BOSS across the back, royal purple tights, and black boots with BOSS on the side. The men were jumping up and down in their seats while the women were reaching out into the aisle, screaming as they tried to grab Ryder and pull him into their embrace as he attempted to make his way to the ring. He kissed at least a half dozen of the more attractive female fans before he got to his destination.

Of course it would be him was the only thing Robbie could think of as he stared at the screen.

Ryder jumped over the top rope but got pummeled by Zhukov’s chain-wrapped fist before he even had the chance to take his jacket off. Within seconds, he was crumpled and sagging on the ring mat as Zhukov continued to pound him on his back and his head.

“There was a better way for him to handle that,” he thought he heard Ike say.

They saw the referee finally try to step in and Zhukov turned to argue with him. With the referee distracted, Abdul grabbed his head and struck him at least three or four times with what appeared to be brass knuckles to the screams of frustration from the crowd.

“Always wondered how blind pro wrestling referees were. Honestly, though, they couldn’t be more blind than major league refs,” Tono said.

Robbie wasn’t paying too much attention to the play-by-play either from the screen or his new companions. He knew exactly what was going to happen next.

After running against the ropes, Zhukov took a two-footed slide and knocked Ryder off the ring floor and down sprawling onto the concrete outside. Then he slid down off the apron and continued the attack. The referee began counting as Zhukov first pounded Ryder’s back for a few more heavy blows. Then, the Russian grabbed Ryder by the back waist of his tights and with a big heave hurled Ryder almost face first into one of the corner ring poles.

With a roar, Ryder collapsed on the floor, rolling back and forth while grasping his left arm. Zhukov rolled up onto the apron and then back standing into the ring. A clearly annoyed referee took the opportunity and grabbed the chain from the Russian, who was distracted from taunting the shrieking fans ringside. After tossing the chain out of the ring, where it landed next to the announcer’s table, he gave a stern lecture to Zhukov. As that happened, Abdul once again ran over and pounded Ryder in the back with his brass knuckles, and then scooted away before the referee returned his attention to the down wrestler and restarted his count.

Artie glanced at his guests in the living room. Most of them were watching the match with either casual indifference or mild derision. Robbie, on the other hand, was staring directly at the screen, one hand covering his mouth, not blinking.

“Motherfucker’s intending on getting an Oscar or some shit,” Tono cackled.

“I’ll be honest, the acting’s not that good,” Harmony said. “I mean, no offense to these guys, but it’s all an act.”

“I’m sure it’s a bit more complicated than that…” Lowry started to comment.

“He’s actually not work… not acting here,” Robbie blurted out, pointing the struggling Ryder. “He really got his shoulder separated. Just give it a second and he’s going to knock it back in. Watch.”

Everyone including Artie gaped at Robbie and then turned back to the screen to see Ryder totter to his feet. With a lunge, he rammed his left shoulder into the steel of the ring post, and his yelp echoed around the arena and even over the shrieks of the female fans. Taking three deep breaths, he pulled himself onto the ring apron with his good arm and flopped in between the ropes.

“Of course, he wasn’t supposed to get hurt, but ol’ Sasha went a bit overboard with the move,” Robbie mentioned in a matter-of-fact tone, more talking to himself. “Now he’s got a receipt he’s about to collect on.”

“What do you mean…?” began Tono.

“Hold up,” Artie said.

Zhukov approached Ryder, winding up for a massive left hook, but the other man lashed out with a lightning-quick right cross catching the Russian squarely in the throat. The blow collapsed the man to his knees, heaving and choking and grabbing at his throat, while Ryder repeatedly slapped him across the back and sides of his head until he rolled onto his side, arms wrapped around his head in pure defense.

“This is him reminding Sasha to behave. Right, he’s about to wrap this up,” Robbie said as Ryder dragged the still coughing Zhukov to his feet. Using his good arm, he flung him into the nearest corner, the Russian using the top ring rope to keep himself upright. With a wince, Ryder reached with his left hand for the elbow pad on his right arm. “Here it comes.”

Ryder slid the elbow pad off his arm and flung it with disdain onto the ground near his feet. He raised his right fist into the air and pumped it down next to his body like a trucker honking his rig’s horn. Finally, with a running start, he hurled toward Zhukov, right arm cocked and smashed his elbow full force into the side of his opponent’s head.

The man was on the ground in seconds. Ryder rolled over and covered him long enough for the referee to count one, two, three, and give the match to him. He glared at Zhukov on the floor as the referee raised his arm and his win was proclaimed. Cradling his left arm, Ryder rolled out of the ring, spitting on the floor outside the ring, and took the most direct route to the backstage area, still cradling his left arm.

“So , how did you know all that?” Artie asked.

Time to unmask, I guess. Robbie took a deep breath. “Jack Ryder’s my father.”

“That wrestler, Jack Ryder, is your father?” Lowry said.

“One and the same.”

“The Boss, holy hell,” Benjiro said. “Can’t believe it.”

“You know about him?” Tono said.

“Ryder was big in puroresu out in Japan, one of the top Westernersthere when he wasn’t in the US. My dad even saw him back in ’93 wrestling in the Tokyo Dome for All-World Japanese Wrestling.”

Robbie took a deep breath as he felt eyes on him from all around. “Food smells amazing,” he said. “How about everyone get a plate and I’ll go ahead and continue the Q&A if anyone cares.”

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As it turned out, Ike, Mary, and Alya had no such interest in the conversation and got involved with some more hands of Milles Borne and UNO, as well as some writing chatter. Everyone else including Lowry and Tono filled their paper plates and found some seats on the couch or folding chairs in the living room as people started playing 20 questions with Robbie.

“So, wait, is Traynor your real name or some pen name, then?” Tanisha asked.

“My real name’s Robert John Traynor, same as my birth certificate,” Robbie said. “Ryder is… the family stage name, so to speak, like Sheen was for Martin and Charlie Sheen or Douglas for Kirk and Michael Douglas. If you look up Jack Ryder in Wikipedia, he’s listed as…”

“…John William Traynor Jr.,” Harmony joined in, raising her cellphone.

“That’s the one.”

“Your father come up with the name?” Lowry asked in a casual tone.

Robbie shook his head. “My grandfather, John Traynor Sr. He heard Ryder was an English word meaning mounted warrior. Guess he thought it made sense for a pro wrestler from Houston.”

“He was the one you said served in Korea?” Tono asked.

“Yeah, he started wrestling after he got back. He was Johnny Ryder.”

“Wait, my old man talked about him once. Wasn’t he some sort of wrestling promoter too, used to do shows out in Los Angeles?” Tono said.

“He owned Global Force Wrestling years back, when it was Gulf Coast Continental Wrestling. I know they eventually started doing shows out in Los Angeles, but I don’t know when that started. My grandfather… I never grew up around him.”

“So, your dad and grandfather were from Texas, but you’re from Minnesota?” Harmony said, disbelief in her voice.

They’re wondering if I’m working them, Robbie thought. Shit. “My mom was from Minnesota; she convinced him to move up there with her. It worked for a while at least.”

“A while?” Harmony said.

“He never liked hanging around home much. They divorced when I was in elementary school.”

He saw her relax as she absorbed the news. “Sounds like a creep. Sorry for you, though.” Harmony sighed.

“Appreciate it. Nothing Mom didn’t say, although she got over it.”

“Hey, another question,” Benjiro said. “Back in class you said your uncle grew up by the Salton Sea, but I thought most of your family was from Texas?”

“I was talking about my uncle Cody. He grew up out there, but he married into the family, my aunt Maggie.”

“What was his last name?”

“Ritter, Cody Ritter.”

“The Monster was your fucking uncle? The Codymonster?”

“Who the hell’s Cody Ritter?” Lowry asked in irritation, eyes narrowed at Robbie.

“The Monster, Cody Ritter. I mean, Jack was big in Japan, but Cody was a fucking legend. Over two meters and a hundred-forty kilos, big bastard. Craziest gaijin I ever saw in the ring. He won world championships in three different Japanese wrestling companies. So, that would make the Ritter Brothers…”

“My cousins, yeah,” Robbie nodded.

“Sounds like pro wrestling was a big part of your life then, unlike what you said in the workshop,” Lowry said, his words hard.

Robbie shrugged. “Maybe it’s a part of my family’s life, but it’s not really mine. My dad was gone more than he was with us, and I grew up way away from his world. I was never part of it.”

“Your dad never showed you anything, never trained you?” Artie asked in disbelief.

“Nothing much at all, especially after he split from Mom. Look… I’ll be honest, pro wrestling was something my family did, and they made a lot of money off it. There’s a reason I don’t have to worry about money coming to school here, and I know I got breaks a lot of kids didn’t because of the money. But I. Never. Was part of it. So that’s the reason I don’t hardly know why I even added that scene. I usually write fantasy stuff.”

“And you just train MMA for the hell of it?” Faith scoffed.

“Yeah, I appreciate being able to take care of myself and keep in shape, not to compete or for something else,” Robbie replied. “I never was into playing team sports.”

“You say so,” Faith replied. “Wait, I’ve got a question. There’s a Jordan Ryder who wrestles for WWW. She any relation to you?”

Robbie snorted at the question. “Ah, yeah, she’s my older sister.” He could see Lowry scratch his head trying to sort it all out while he heard Artie mutter “unbelievable.”

“Really? Oh, fuck, that’s wild. She’s really amazing,” Faith said.

“Didn’t know you were a fan,” Harmony said.

“Well, sort of…” She faced Robbie again. “I don’t make a big deal about people’s looks, but your sister is about the most perfect female I’ve ever seen.”

“Oh, here we go,” Harmony cackled.

“Have you ever seen her? She’s got the face of Wonder Woman and the body of She-Hulk. I saw her in The Body Issue of ESPN Magazine and she blew me away. You two close?”

“We grew up together in Minnesota and still keep in touch all the time,” Robbie chuckled. “She’ll appreciate the well-wishes.”

“Robbie, I need to ask you a writing question, and I need you to be straight with me,” Lowry said.

“I will, Peter,” he said, remembering Lowry’s request to use his first name.

“You said in class you didn’t know specifics about how wrestling matches were… staged, arranged, whatever. That was the truth?”

Robbie nodded. “I don’t know all the details of how things went, even though I grew up around it. Sometimes what my dad used to talk about, I don’t know how much of it was the truth and how much was kayfabe.”

“Kayfabe?”

“Basically, it’s everyone pretending all this going on in and around the ring was real, not planned out in advance,” Robbie said. “It’s maintaining the illusion, sort of like when magicians act like what they’re doing is real. When you lie for a living, the lies mix in with the truth enough it’s hard to tell which is which.”

“So, assuming you’re not dealing in… kayfabe, you think you might be able to find out the information? Or maybe you should drop the whole thing.” Peter retorted.

Robbie was silent for a while, leaning over and gazing at his feet before responding. “I might lean toward doing the latter. A lot of that shit… it’s tough to even think about.” He got up from his chair. “I need some air for a moment.”

Peter looked around the room after Robbie walked out. “What was that about…?”

“It isn’t your fault, Peter,” Artie said. “You don’t know, do you?”

“Know what, Artie?”

Artie shook his head. “All those guys we were talking about? They’re all gone.”

“Wh… what do you mean, gone?”

“All dead,” Benjiro said. “His dad, his three uncles, his grandfather, they’re all dead. Everyone except his sister and those two cousins.”

“All of them?”

Artie nodded. “I’d seen some stuff on YouTube and I think maybe Word Television’s series on wrestling. Almost all of them died one way or another… even his brother.”

“His brother died?” Harmony said.

“Look up John William Traynor III,” Artie said.

Harmony glanced down at her phone and tapped at it for a minute. “John William Traynor III, better known as ‘The Lion’ Jackie Ryder… oldest son of professional wrestler Jack Ryder. God, that’s depressing.”

“Okay,” Peter said, getting up from his chair. “Right. I’ll talk with him.”

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One More Thing…

Just remember, next weekend will be the debut of The Writing Lab! On the third weekend (almost always Saturday) of the month, I will be posting a short essay focused on writing advice or something about a writing difficulty I’ve overcome (or perhaps haven’t overcome 😅). I think I’ll start off with a short series on something I’m wrestling with at the present: the revision process.

In addition, tentatively scheduled for 7 p.m. Central Time for that Saturday, I will be hosting a live AMAAW (Ask Me Anything About Writing) on Substack Chat. You can find me on Substack at @jasonliegoisauthor to join in. If you’re looking for some writing advice or just want to bounce some ideas off me, I’m open to it. Hey, try and stop by so I’m not talking to myself, will you? I think it might be fun.


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  1. I get very superstitious about putting out the actual titles of my projects until they are ready to be released and ready to go. So, you get these weird titles. ↩︎
  2. As always with these works in progress, I warn the following excerpt can and will contain spoilers for the plot of this project, so take a break from the blog this week if that’s really important to you. ↩︎

Prose Night at The Writing Life, 8 February 2025: About writing and the online life

Hello, everyone.

For those not familiar with the lay of the land here at The Writing Life, I set aside my posts on the second weekend of the month for prose projects. By this, I mean the post could be just about any kind of writing (except poetry; you’ll see it here every fourth weekend of the month). It could be excerpts from some of my fiction works in progress, it could be original self-contained short stories or stories connected to my longer fiction. Often, they might be original essays having something connected (however tenuously) with writing.

It is the latter category that today’s piece falls under. I decided to write about the online world, the social media world, I appear to be tied to and yet wish to be separate from. I’ll try to make sense of everything in the end, trust me.


A caricature of myself I did with a photo and one of those art apps. Because why not?

On the Issue of Social Media and Life and Writing

By Jason Liegois

The idea of me contemplating whether I need to spend so much time online is amusing to no end, ladies and gentlemen. At the start of this essay, I believe I need to state my circumstances and biases right from the beginning, because my experiences are much different from the millennials and those later generations who know nothing of life offline.

I am very much Generation X. I was born 30 March 1973, eight years before Ronald Reagan nearly lost his life to an assassin’s bullet. From what I observed, I was the last college student who received email and unlimited long distance phone minutes. I did not live with computers; computers were a thing that were trucked into our classroom on media carts and we had 10 minutes to mess around with them. We had no cell phones, no video links, to connect to people. We did it in the analog world, like in the series Stranger Things, or not at all. I occasionally feel like a relic in this era, and thus in my opinion, I think it could be useful for those who grew up staring at screens which told them what to think to hear from a point of view which did not have this experience.

People like us, people older than us, we need to write down how things were like for us, so people of future generations know there was a different way than the way they lived. There was a way beyond screens and apps and digitization and artificial intelligence of various levels doing the thinking for us. There was a way and there can be a different way than what there was1, but I’m not going to assume the way I think is the only way to think.

Got it straight? All right, we can continue.

What is Social Media Good For?

I’ve been on social media for a while, beginning on Facebook and wandering around on a few different sites since then. WordPress (where I’ve been blogging for several years) is more of a blogging site, where Substack is now a hybrid of a blogging platform and a social media platform.

I have to say if I was not a writer at this point, I might not even be on social media, or at least my presence on social media would be dramatically restricted. This fact is directly tied to my youth and the opportunities afforded to people at that time (late 20th century).

When you wanted to write an essay or an opinion piece, you had to convince a newspaper or magazine publisher to run it. Perhaps you were a staff member or a guest writer, but you had to convince them to publish it. Then, you’d hope some people pick it up off the newsstand. Now all you do is type a few things, punch a few buttons, and your words are on the World Wide Web for everyone to see. Or not.

You had to convince publishers in New York to publish your book and give you cash for it and they would take care of all the publicity and advertising and everything. But that was only if they thought you were a good writer. Now everyone has the chance to publish their own books, even though they have to do all the marketing and advertising and not all of those books are good or even written by humans. And the long and the short of it is, social media is one of the most inexpensive ways of getting the word out about what you are writing and what you are about.

I mean, social media is good for some other things. If you want to keep in touch with your family, old friends, or school classmates, it’s a good way to do that. You can do it automatically online and not have to muck around with old traditions like class reunions and the like2. You can find people who have similar interests in entertainment or hobbies. It’s good for finding those funny pictures with kooky sayings (Memes, I remember them being called) and saving them or sharing them online.

I’ve come to the conclusion it’s pretty much useless for anything else.

There are many good writers on Substack and other places who have been talking about the decline of social media over the past several years. I might have written one of those myself when I decided to get off Twitter, for example.

Again, not to get into politics, but there are at least a few different reasons for this as I rely on the analysis of others.

  1. It turns out business truly do not like to be regulated in any meaningful way. This has always been true of businesses, but as tech companies were relatively young among the world’s industries, there might have been a thought they were different. They are now being supportive of leaders who promise not to regulate them, and their actions reflect this.
  2. There appears to be a general decline in the quality of user experiences, especially regarding older platforms like Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter. When viewers log on, they seem to see advertisements and posts from others rather than the people they follow.
  3. There’s a larger amount of AI-generated material and bots online. At a certain point, I wonder when the bots are going to outnumber the actual people online, and I wonder if it is already happening.

Why is all of this happening? To quote the great Italian philosopher and footballer Giorgio Chinaglia, who used this phrase to explain why anything happened in the world of football:

It’s the money, you morons.

From what I understand, the companies in charge of these social media sites are doing everything they can to make money from their operations no matter what the cost. It’s their companies, they have the right to run things the way they want. But that doesn’t mean we agree with it.

For me, it means I don’t trust everything I see on social media. I go to actual news sites and actual journalists for my news, and not random Facebook places. I only engage with social media for given purposes, not for self-gratification or a dopamine boost. I also

It also means I try to connect to real people in person rather than people I only meet across a laptop or a phone screen.

Attention to all scammers, marketers, and assorted individuals online: I am not interested in your services unless I have met you IRL and/or I have investigated you enough to feel halfway confident in your services to solicit you myself. I will not accept solicitations or you reaching out to me. You will either be made fun of or told to buy my books instead. Then I’ll probably block you.

I am finding I feel much personal satisfaction with interacting with real people in the real world than many of my online interactions. Today I went down to my local bookstore, Bent Oak Books, whose owner Danette I’ve gotten to know well over the past few months. I met with Keokuk author Bree Moore, who was having an author signing down there. We met and realized we must have run into each other at a previous author’s event somewhere here in Iowa. I got on her email list and we promised to keep in touch.

If you’re into fantasy writing, you might want to check her web site too. Now that I met her, I’m looking forward to doing it myself.

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Prose Night at The Writing Life, 12 January 2025: Part book review, part reflection

Ironically, it all began with a Facebook post.

There’s more than a few of my writing friends I connect with online, either over email or social media. It was one of them who posted a link for a book by Scott Scheper, an author from San Diego who had written a book about a misunderstood note-taking system. I misunderstood it because I’d never heard of it until then. However, I’m always looking for ways to be creative and to be helpful with my writing.

So it was on this slender premise I ordered Antinet Zettelkasten by Scheper, and I’ve spent a couple of months pouring through its pages. Is it a well-written book? Yes. Is it a challenging book to read? Absolutely yes. Is it a book and subject of interest for most people? If you are not a writer or researcher, absolutely not, but maybe if you are. Even if I don’t try to experiment with a Antinet in real life (and it looks like I might), it still got me thinking about how both I and others learn and process information.


A Summary (Zettelkasten-WHAT?)

In the book, Scheper traces the creation of this Zettelkasten (German for “Notebox”) by various writers and academics and its refinement into its current form by the German sociologist and writer Niklas Luhmann (1927-1998). Luhmann, who was a social science philosopher and developer of systems theory, ended up producing around 600 academic papers and seventy books during his life.

He was almost more known for building up a zettelkasten of more than 90,000 cards filled with information gleamed from his readings and research. These included index, bibliographic, and data cards, all tucked away into noteboxes until he needed to review them for a spark of insight or obscure information. Luhmann laid out a simple numeric-alpha system of organization allowing for branching off into new and unknown territories.

Scheper has a tall task ahead of him with the book’s subject. Not only does he have to give the needed background to understand the history of the system, he has to explain how the system works with enough detail for his readers to replicate it for themselves, as well as get into the science and reasoning for why writers and researchers might want to use the Zettelkasten, which he terms an Antinet in reference to the analog nature of the system and its nature as a network of ideas. To his credit, I believe Scheper realizes this and tries to prepare his readers for the experience.


The Book

For one of the first times in my reading experience, I read an author admitting in print his book would not be to everyone’s interest. If you have no interest in writing and research, he said not to waste your time. If you are someone thinking the Antinet system will be an easy way to produce a lot of writing, Scheper disabuses you of this thought. Antinet is not for the faint of heart. And that’s just in Chapter Two.

I think the book (which Scheper warns is not an easy read way back in the preface) accomplishes what the author’s goals were for the book.

  • He gives an interesting overview of Luhmann’s life and how he came to develop and refine the Zettelkasten system over time, and also explained why Luhmann’s work isn’t as well known as it is in Europe (his books are really dense reads, he kind of wanted to be obscure, he has something of a trolling personality, he was German).
  • He lays out the ins and outs of the Antinet, which covers not only the structure of the system, but how it promotes thought and reasoning.
  • He spends a considerable amount of time discussing other systems that claim to be a Zettlekasten system, but misunderstand or misinterpret what the system truly was. Some of these misunderstandings involve the Antinet’s nature as an analog system, or the way it is organized (with alpha-numeric designations rather than, say, keywords and tags. Digitization makes things easy to do but hard to memorize.
  • He does a very good job of explaining how to set up an Antinet yourself, including how to take the notes, organize them, and make use of index and bibliographical cards as well.

The Antinet System

It would take me at least two whole other blogs to totally explain the Antinet system more than what I have here. However, I’ll review some of the vital elements of this system according to Scheper.

  • It has to be an analog system – that is, a system based on paper and pen/pencil, not electric impulses and programs. Using physical items, things we can see and feel, are important to retaining and expanding knowledge.
  • It uses an numeric-alpha system of organizing and identifying information. It allows for linking ideas.
  • It has a tree-like structure where ideas branch off into other ideas in a way that’s not dynamic or fluid, but not one of order, either. It’s kind of like a tree, and like life, as well.
  • It has an index that serves as a map guiding you to where all the information you have can be found.

Analog, Numeric, Tree, Index – Anti. And since it’s a learning network, you add the “net” on the end, get it?


Thoughts on Analog Thought

Throughout the book, Scheper discusses the importance of the physical process of writing things like notes is on the ability to learn, retain, and process information. He cites many different studies attesting to the scientific basis and support for this belief.

I would second this notion. Over the past forty years, I have been very willing to adopt to the latest technology. I was all in favor of the desktop and then the laptop computer taking over for the typewriter, the hard drive taking over for the notebook and filing cabinet, and Internet sources such as Wikipedia taking the place of the encyclopedias that used to line my parents’ basement bookcases.

However, in recent times, I’ve begun to become a bit distrustful of online platforms that change their terms of service at a whim or whose owners seem to not be good people. Every time I seem to open up my online messages, I get spammed with people who either want to sell me something, be my friend, or want to be my friend and sell me something. Authors are always getting hit up by people wanting to promote their books or do other things for them. At this point, I’m about to make a hard and fast rule not to trust any vendor without getting a recommendation from an IRL friend. There’s no sense in wasting my money on ridiculousness.

From my own experiences in note-taking and other things, the idea of analog thinking and hard work sounds like a good idea. However, I know it’s not for everyone.

For the past several years, I have been a special education teacher. I know it would benefit these students if they were able to take great notes and work hard at getting it done, but I know it’s not as easy as just saying it. Many of these students have difficulty processing information and writing it down at the same time. Many past students, frankly, have an aversion to reading a large amount of written material, or writing. Why should it be a surprise to anyone? If you find something to be incredibly difficult, how motivated would you to be doing it just for the heck of it and not for a grade? They require additional accommodations, and much of the existing technology is a big help for them. Of course, being able to write notes on their own would be a massive benefit, but that’s not where these students are.

I’m grateful for the opportunity to teach special education for several reasons, but one of them is this experience has returned my love of reading and writing to a pure place. When I first started teaching students in language arts fifteen years ago, I had hoped I could pass along my love of reading and writing to them. I came to realize what I loved was not the same as what most children loved growing up. (Thank goodness with my own children I never forced my own hobbies on to them and accepted their interests for what they were. I’m glad I did.)

When I became a special education teacher, I saw firsthand the struggles many students had with the activities I always did just for fun. I realized I would have to meet them at their level, and do what I could to assist them and help them on their learning journey. That has been incredibly rewarding, and as a result my passion for writing has become more my own, something more personal. If a student loves to write, fantastic, and I’ve encouraged many such students. But every individual is different, and I appreciate those differences so much more through my experiences.

So, is working analog a good idea? It might be for me. As for others… they need to do what they need to do for themselves.


Final Verdict:

If you are a writer and/or researcher who’s not afraid of a long and hard mental process and want to try it out in real life, this is definitely worth a read. If that doesn’t apply to you, Scheper admits you shouldn’t waste your time with his book. I would agree, and I will also need to read through Antinet Zettelkasten more than a few times to get my head around all the concepts it lays out. Who knows, I might be filling out some three by five cards soon.


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